Chapter 168 The Past Was Gone
Boris clenched his fists in shock.
Ziana’s response was like a heavy blow that landed directly on his heart.
Sharp pain and soreness spread instantly throughout his body, and all the strength seemed to be drained from him.
“What did you say?” His voice was h**rse, with barely detectable trembles.
Despite this, he forced a bitter smile on his face, unwilling to believe or accept the truth, much like an ostrich burying its head in the
sand.
He hung his head, avoiding her gaze, as if he were avoiding a cruel trial. “Ziana, don’t be angry and lie to me.”
Ziana shook her head, her tone firm. “I didn’t lie.”
Boris’ heart sank.
This feeling was even more overwhelming than when Ziana had rejected his proposal for remarriage the first time.
Boris panicked and tried to persuade Ziana, “Actually, you’re trying to make me jealous of him, right?”.
Ziana laughed at this. “No, I genuinely like…”
Boris knew what she was going to say, but he didn’t want to hear it.
He interrupted Ziana, even lowered his head to stare at his black shoes. “I know, I was too harsh on you in the past, but it’s okay. You like gentleness, and I can learn to change. I promise I’ll change, even in the areas you don’t like.”
“Boris…”
“I know that you love me. We have been together for three years, and we even have a kid. How can you change your mind so quickly? Do you remember what you said? You said you would always like me. You said it yourself. Have you forgotten?”
Ziana looked at the man in front of her.
Boris used to be confident and proud, but now he stood at the door, head hung low, like a child who had done something wrong.
This was the first time Boris had spoken to her with such a soft tone and even a humble, begging attitude.
For a brief moment, her heart was overwhelmed with a sharp pain, but she quickly told herself that she couldn’t turn back, that she
couldn’t be soft-hearted.
This was just an illusion. Boris’ pride was at stake. He couldn’t tolerate Ziana having someone else, but it wasn’t genuine love.
If Boris loved Ziana, he wouldn’t have left Ziana alone in an empty house for the past three years.
If Boris loved Ziana, he wouldn’t have belittled and ridiculed Ziana for the past three years.
If Boris loved Ziana, he wouldn’t have let Ziana taste the bitterness of unrequited love again and again.
If Boris loved/Ziana, he wouldn’t have been able to bear watching Ziana go through a cycle of hope and disappointment in the past three years,/letting Ziana struggle between love and non-love.
Ziana had lived in that state of anxiety, confusion, unease, and torment for three years.
She rescued herself from that relationship in a way that was almost like cutting off her right arm.
She didn’t want to go back.
She didn’t want Boris to affect her emotions anymore.
She didn’t want to keep tossing and turning because of him, fooling herself.
She didn’t want to speculate whether Boris loved her or not, to decipher the meaning behind every move Boris made.
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She didn’t want to become… not herself
Ziana took a deep breath.
Emotions were uncontrollable, which made people very pitiful.
She knew her decision clearly, but still felt sad.
She thought, this must be the difference between love and not loving.
She had loved Boris with all her heart and had become accustomed to liking what Boris liked and worrying about Bons’ wores.
Even if she no longer chose to love Boris, even if she no longer loved Boris as much, she still couldn’t bear to see Bons like this.
His dejected appearance affected Ziana, making her heart sink and her expression gradually colder.
After a moment, Ziana looked at him and said, word by word.
“Boris, raise your head.”
This tone made Boris realize something.
A feeling of unease surged in his chest.
This feeling reached its peak when Boris met her cold and calm eyes.
He saw a determination that seemed to have cut ties with the past.
Boris’ intuition told him that what Ziana was about to say next would cause him pain.
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