Gloriana spent around 40 minutes in meditation. Throughout the entire experience, she completely ignored Ves and anything else. It was as if she had completely closed herself from reality!
The extraordinary state of mind she achieved exuded a degree of solemness and devotion that Ves had only witnessed from the most devout Ylvainans.
While he was aware that Gloriana had always been a strong adherent of hexism, she normally restrained this aspect of hers when she was with Ves.
However, now that Ves observed her earnest prayer or meditation up close, he realized that her faith was a much bigger part of her than he thought!
The sincerity that Gloriana displayed towards her beliefs frightened him. She was so devoted to them that her mind completely transformed into a different mode!
Ves utilized his perception to the fullest degree. He not only observer her from the outside with his spiritual senses, but he also borrowed from the induction of his dormant spiritual fragment which was orbiting Gloriana's design seed.
After patiently observing her wondrous state of mind, Ves somewhat figured out what was taking place.
The moment she began to meditate, she exercised some deep-rooted habits that cleared her mind of all distractions.
It was as if she had activated a couple of software programs in her mind!
These programs not only shoved all of her distracting thoughts aside, but also amplified her focus towards her faith!
She even started to forget herself. Her sense of self had diminished as if she naturally diminished herself in the face of greater beliefs.
There were plenty of other nuances at work, many of which seemed to facilitate the recovery of her spiritual energy!
Ves noted that her mind did not appear to be proficient in this aspect. Before, her spiritual energy levels had never been touched, which meant that her mind never had a need to improve this aspect.
Yet now, Gloriana was weaker than she had ever been. She instinctively sought to develop solutions to facilitate the restoration of her spiritual energy reserves!
All of this took place on an unconscious and uncontrolled level. If not for the lack of distractions, letting her mind manipulate her spirituality to this degree was extremely dangerous!
Spiritual energy was very potent and possessed remarkable properties. If misused, Gloriana could easily hurt herself!
This was why he possessed some scruples towards what Gloriana was doing. It was only by accident and coincidence that she managed to leverage her meditation to increase her natural recovery rate.
As long as she completed her meditation session, she would probably be okay.
However, any interruption might lead to a severe disruption of her current mental state. Ves observed that her mental balance was a lot more fragile than before!
Ves was not entirely sure how much damage she would incur if someone interrupted her meditation, but he was sure it wouldn't be light!
This was something that his intuition told him. Any thought about pulling Gloriana out of her meditation made his heart very restless!
Therefore, he patiently waited for more than half an hour before Gloriana automatically ended her prayer. Her lips stopped whispering silent words and her mind slowly turned back to normal.
The clutter of thoughts and emotions in her mind reasserted themselves. That was when Ves was sure that Gloriana returned back to normal.
She opened her eyes, revealing clear windows that completely conveyed her certainty and conviction in her beliefs!
"Do you see, Ves?" She smiled adoringly at him. "As long as you believe in something, you will certainly get closer to the truth that governs our lives!"
Ves automatically ignored her attempt to convert him to her faith. There was no way he would ever follow hexism as long as he was a man!
When Gloriana rose from her mat and took back her altar, Ves sat down on her place.
"Let me try something."
"Do you need me to return my altar?"
"NO!"
After Ves made his refusal clear, he began to imitate Gloriana and attempted to enter the same mental state.
He concentrated his mind and tried to rid himself of every distraction. It helped that he was already very practiced in this regard.
However, Ves quickly encountered obstacles. Emptying his mind of all thoughts and emotions fluctuated his mood in a way that he found very disconcerting!
This was not a natural human state! Ves felt as if he was hollowing out his humanity, leaving him as a soulless, immoral machine who only cared about executing instructions!
Normally, when Ves designed a mech, he never emptied his mind to this degree. The most he did was to shove aside his distractions instead of displacing them out of his immediate reach!
The thoughts and emotions he set aside weren't irrelevant when he was focused on designing a mech. They still played a role whenever he had a need for them! After all, his design seed intricately incorporated some of his thoughts and emotions when he initially advanced to Journeyman.
His humanity played a core role in expressing his passion in mech design!
Ves initially failed to comprehend how Gloriana managed to do anything productive while she was in this empty state.
However, he soon realized that her faith and beliefs served as vital anchors!
Realizing the answer, Ves tried to focus his mind on something that allowed him to take the next steps.
Unfortunately, nothing worked.
He first tried to 'worship' mechs. While he possessed a strong affection for them, he didn't necessarily elevate them into unfathomable existences.
His design seed became more active as soon as he tried to center his thoughts around mechs, which instantly caused him to abort this attempt!
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