She ran all the way to the beach, and indeed she saw Carlos there.
Taking up her stride and walking towards him step by step, standing beside him, she said, "Don't think I'm here to apologize to you, I don't feel sorry for you, Carlos."
Carlos looked askance at her and said coldly, "I don't think you should appear in front of me now."
"I come to find you, of course there is a reason for this."
"No matter what your reason is, I can choose not to listen to it."
"You don't have the choice not to listen, instead you have to listen to me clearly!"
Alicia met his cold eyes and said word by word, "Yes, you have suffered a lot, you were abandoned by the woman you loved the most. You have every right to be sad, depressed, heart-broken, but you have no reason to give up yourself, like today, even if it is the day that the woman abandoned you, so what? Your life is given to you by your mother, not by her, so who is she to ruin such an important day? Our birthday is our mother's day of suffering, and how can we forget the person in this world who gave us life just to escape from the hurt feelings? Is is worse than the pain that our mother experienced on that day, decades ago, in order to give us life?"
"You have not been betrayed by anyone, so stop talking nonsense. It is always easy to say than to do. My life is not as precious to me as you think, it can either get by, or discontinue anytime and anywhere."
Alicia did not expect him to say such irresponsible words, she got enraged instantly and roared, "Then fine, since your life is so worthless, you care so little, then the sea is ahead of you. You now should bury your life that you think can disappear at any time, anywhere, lest your family be sad for you now!"
"Do you think I don't dare to?"
Carlos curled his lips to force a smile, he then took a step forward to the center of the sea, Alicia watched him walk further and further away, the seawater engulfed his legs, his waist, and was just about to engulf his back, she suddenly lost control of herself and chased after him, running into the seawater, and hugged his waist tightly, crying out sadly.
"Well, since you want to die, then I'll accompany you, After all, years ago, I already had such a thought... "
Alicia's tears fell down to his back, and then into the sea. This boundless sea, how can it understand that one drop of a tear was carrying a burden that was heavier than thousands of stones.
Carlos paused and looked back, "You are such a stupid woman. Don't you feel pity to accompany a bastard like me to die?"
"In your eyes, we are just a phony couple only with a marriage license but not a real couple, but in my eyes, you are already a family member to me, even if there is no love between us, I will not leave you alone and will always be by your side, no matter how you treat me."
Carlos was deeply touched by her words, and turned around to tidy up her wet hairs on her face, said, "You are really a stupid woman. Do you really think I am so vulnerable? The disappointment of love has indeed caused me indelible pain, but it's not so serious that makes me lose hope of living, and even if I want to die, it's the day three years ago, not today."
"Then why are you going into the sea? Why let me think that you really have no hope of living?"
"Just to clear my mind, I don't deny that you're right, our lives don't belong to us, so we can't kill it for any reason."
"Do you really think so?"
The tears on Alicia's eyes shone under the moonlight, and when she saw Carlos nodding, she finally smiled through tears.
"Thank you, thank you for being willing to listen to my words."
She was really happy, very, very happy.
Carlos reached out and gently wiped her tears and said with emotion, "You are a very warm woman. The one who should say thank you is me, thank you for putting up with my bad temper, thank you for not giving up on me like other women."
"I don't want you to say thank you, if you really want to thank me, then can you promise to overcome your PTSD like you helped me overcome my claustrophobia, please? It may be a little difficult, but as you said, there is no difficulties that can't be overcome as long as you persist, everything that happens to us in our daily lives is determined by how we feel, if our heart feels hurt, it will be hurt, but if our heart feels unhurt, it won't be so easy to get hurt."
Carlos stared at her for a long time without saying anything, and then suddenly lifted one of her hands and put it on his wet chest, "Until last year, this place was cold always like this, but not today."
He unbuttoned his shirt one by one, and showed his chest. It was not the first time that Alicia saw his bare chest, but was the first time to find surprisingly that there was a tattoo in the place where his heart beats-a word, a person's name, Dulcie.
Whether it was in the hotel pool in T City last time, or the day before, Alicia had never noticed that such a word existed in that place.
"Just how much love is there to have her name on his heart?"
She questioned with great loss and sadness.
"When one day you really love someone, by then, it will all make sense."
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