The Silent Alpha novel Chapter 4

***Vanessa*** 

....5 months later...

"So how long have you and Christian been trying?"

Dr.Lila asks as she sanitizes her hands and puts on her gloves.

The sterile medical room is anything but comforting but I put on a brave smile and answer her.

"We've been at it for months," I lie.

She didn’t need to know Christian barely touched me ever since Natalia's lie came to light.

The b***h was gone but she was still getting in my way.

"Does it hurt when you have intercourse?" she asks.

I roll my eyes at her.

"No.Christian is a true Alpha.He only gives me pleasure," I smirk.

Dr.Lila gives me an uncomfortable smile.

"Okay,"

Dr.Lila nods, checking the stir ups and instructing the medical assistant to hand her the speculum.

"Just relax for me.I'm just going to take a quick look inside and take a few samples.Make sure everything is okay.Alright?"

I puff out my chest in pride.

"I'm in perfect health, doc.You'll see.Moon Goddess must be waiting for the perfect time to bless me with Dr.Lila doesn’t seem convinced but I could care less what the old cow thought.

I would be carrying their Alpha soon enough and Christian will forget all about his little brat with Natalia.

I bite my lip uneasily and lay flat on my back, counting my breaths as I feel the cold metal tool enter me.

A small whimper escapes my lips as Dr.Lila expands the tool and scrapes at my walls with a large cotton swab.

She hands the samples to her assistant who quickly puts them away in glass test tubes.

Dr.Lila then inserts her gloved fingers inside and gently presses against my walls.

"Hmmm...A little swelling in this area," she observes, moving her fingers a bit more.

I don’t like the sound of that, but quickly push aside the thought.

After a thorough examination, the doctor removes her fingers and prepares the transvaginal ultrasound probe with some gel.

The probe is a thick plastic tube that will take a full image of my uterus.

I remain on my back as the probe enters me, my hands gripping the sides of the bed in discomfort.

My heart pounds inside my chest as Dr.

Lila surveys my uterus.

"There's some scarring on the fallopian tubes..." she says, staring at the screen intently.

"Are you sure you haven't been feeling any discomfort in your pelvis? Any bleeding, discharge, difficulty”

 "Yes, I'm sure," I nod frantically.

I was starting to get frightened.

"w-what does the scarring mean?"

Dr.Lila doesn't answer, still scrutinizing her screen as she examines more of my uterus.

I start to panic.

"Your Luna is speaking to you! Answer me, damn it! What does it mean?"

I scream at her.

Dr.Lila frowns at me and sighs in annoyance.

"It means...you could very likely be sterile..."

One week later....

Dr.Lila puts on her glasses as she studies my test results from the pelvic exam.

"You tested positive for gonorrhea," She says.

"What?" I snap in indignation.

"A-are you calling me a w'**e?"

A blank look overtakes her face and she shrugs.

"I didn’t say anything.You came to that conclusion on your own," she replies.

An overwhelming anger boils through me.

She would have never said such a thing to Natalia! Without a second thought, I raise my hand and slap her across the face.

"Remember who you are speaking to, Doc.I am your Luna," I snarl.

"And I will not tolerate you mocking me!" I settle back into my seat and wait for the doc to continue with her assessment.

"It appears you experienced no symptoms for your gonorrhea and as such, you went untreated for months," the doctor finally says.

"After some time, your infection led to pelvic inflammatory disease for which you also appeared to have no symptoms.Your infection only grew with the lack of treatment, thereby damaging your uterus and fallopian tubes."

I didn't understand a word she was saying.

"So what does that mean? I take some antibiotics and am good as new?" I ask, a bitter taste settling in my mouth.

"Antibiotics will help get rid of the infection but the damage is irreversible," she says quietly, removing her glasses.

A bit of pity lingers in her eyes as she looks at me.

"The scarring on your fallopian tubes and uterus is permanent.I'm sorry to say this, Luna, but you will never be able to have children of your own."

I stare blankly at her, taking in the information slowly.

My hand flies to my flat stomach, mourning the loss of the possibility of ever swelling with life.

A small sobs gets caught in my throat as I rise to my feet.

Dr.Lila gets to her feet as well and places a hand over mine.

"Luna...we need to know where you got this infec-"

"Don’t touch me!" I scream, tears spilling onto my cheeks.

"You're wrong! You're f*****g wrong! my own eyes and the test..."

"Well run it again!" I snap, taking her tests and tearing them to shreds.

"Do it again because you are wrong!"

She purses her lips and sighs.

"Luna, you can take the test as many times as you like, the results will not change."

Enraged, I slap her again and grab her by the collar of her shirt.

"Do it again," I hiss.

"NOW!"

...

5 months later...

The old hag was right.

Time and time again, I was tested and probed by several doctors only to be told I would never get pregnant ...

and I would never give Christian the pups he so craved.

Rumors began to spread like wildfire of my infertility and pack members grew restless about my performance as Luna.

I was stressed out of my mind and Christian was no help.

He was too busy sending scouts in search of Natalia to notice how unhappy I was.

To make matters worse, I've been feeling pains in my stomach.

They were faint like little pinches but unmistakable.

Dr.Lila could offer no explanation so I've decided to ask Christian for help.

I just hope he’s in a good mood.

I approach his office and to my horror, find him nose deep in some lowly omega's p***y, growling hungrily as he devours her.

The stupid omega jumps up from the desk onto her feet and fixes her skirt, her face flushed with embarrasment.She was one of the cook's daughters and worked the morning shift.

Christian looks anything but pleased to have his activities interrupted and orders the omega out of his office.She quickly scurries past me, mumbling an apology under her breath as she escapes.

My stomach churns with disgust at the sound of her voice and I practically shove her out of the room.

I fight back tears as I turn to Christian.I had betrayed my own sister for this man.

How could he think so little of me and betray our bond as Alpha and Luna of this Pack? 

"How could you?" I ask, desperately trying to keep from falling apart.

"After everything I've done for you, how could you turn around and do this to me? I'm your Luna..."

"And yet you cannot give me a son," he shrugs, inspecting his nails.

"How could you expect me or anyone in this pack to take you seriously as a Luna when you can't even give me the one thing I need from you?"

I open my mouth but feel my words dry up in anger.

He rises to his feet, a smirk curled on his lips as he walks around his desk towards me.

His long warm fingers wrap around my throat and I'm suddenly pressed up against the wall.

"I should kill you where you stand for being such an inadequate making me believe you were better than my fated mate..."

My head is slammed against the wall, little stars blurring my vision.

"If it weren't for the fact that my pack needs a Luna, trust me...you'd already be six feet under."