It happened so fast.
It was really so sudden that Roxanne couldn't believe her ears.
The snow continued to fall, the wind kept on howling, and in the chill, every sense was heightened.
Every word Harrison said struck her fragile nerves with a resounding force. Although it was freezing, Roxanne felt a warmth beginning to spread within her, probably due to her racing heartbeat.
With her blood tingled, the cold was suddenly forgotten, and so was the falling snow. Her heart was in turmoil, filled with unease.
Facing the snowstorm, Roxanne looked at him, bewildered. "Harrison, do you even know what you're saying?"
She had been the one to suggest the divorce. In hindsight, it was quite a reckless move. She didn't want to divorce him, but when it came down to choosing between her career and her marriage, she chose the former.
She had hoped that this would change Harrison's attitude, make him see their marriage in a new light, respect her independence, and support her ambitions of making money by herself.
The world was no place for a housewife who depended entirely on her husband for happiness.
Once a woman put all her expectation of happiness on her husband, she in fact would be the one being supported financially by the man, or to put it bluntly, she would be like a parasite, depending on his man about literally everything.
She was too proud to rely on anyone else.
Especially when Harrison was so accomplished and respected. How could she, living off him like a parasite, ever consider herself his equal, or discuss pure affection?
Even though she couldn’t be roughly the same as him, when she was able to earn her living by herself, wouldn’t come for Harrison’s money or position, she could feel she became more confident and assured in a relationship.
But Harrison didn't understand any of this.
She thought his coldness after the divorce was a calculated decision. She never expected him to regret his actions, to want to get back together.
He was the one who cut her off completely, even going as far as blocking her number from his phone and WhatsApp, and even deleting it from the cellphones of Alexander’s, Vincent’s and those of his associates. He also deleted Chloe Mitchell’s number and WhatsApp.
Acting like they were strangers when he ran into them.
She had managed to pull through, feeling as if she had narrowly escaped death.
Just when she had come to terms with the failure of her marriage, he suddenly appeared again, expressing his regrets, wanting to remarry.
Her peace of mind was once again disrupted.
How would she be able to face it?
She looked at him, asking seriously, "Harrison, are you sure you know what you're saying?"
"I'm pretty sure."
His voice wasn't as clear due to the vast emptiness of the snowy landscape and the loud wind. But it was firm, resolute, striking her disoriented heartstring with every word.
She was beginning to understand him less. "Harrison, I always thought you were steady, always made rational decisions."
But as a matter of fact, that wasn't the case.
Before their divorce, he had thrown a fit because she was too engrossed in her work and neglected him. He had said that there was no point being together if she only cared about her work, and suggested they might as well divorce.
During the divorce, he had been adamant about not agreeing. But then he had suddenly asked her to swiftly complete the procedures, and cut her off immediately afterwards.
In retrospect, it wasn't exactly mature.
It wasn't the behavior one would expect from a successful businessman.
"You suddenly wanted to cut all ties. And now, all of a sudden, you want to remarry. Harrison, this is making me feel very uneasy and scared."
Harrison, standing in the snow, allowed the wind to cut through him like a blade. His broad shoulders slumped slightly.
"Haven't you ever thought about remarrying me?"
Roxanne didn't want to lie to herself.
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