The Wolf In Me novel Chapter 55

"I want every wolf to help out in the search for my son. We cannot rest until he is found! He is your future alpha and we can't waste any time!"

I was shouting at the top of my lungs as my face felt like it was burning with anxiety and rage. I already imagined all the worst things that could happen in my head and my body was shaking. My mind was not quite thinking clearly, yet it was a must that I gather myself and focus to find him quickly.

As much as I tried hard to fight against shifting into my wolf, Simba was eager to release itself and take the lead, but my body would not make it if I shifted. My wound was too deep and still fresh.

"Hey, hey, Luka!" I heard someone say from my side. All I could hear was muffled voices and a whistling sound that was getting stronger in my ears. My vision was also getting blurry and the light was too much to handle

"Turn it off, turn off the lights," I mumbled, closing my eyes with my right arm.

"Luka!" Someone screamed at me again.

This time I was shaken out of my insanity and as my eyes started to focus I realised that it was Jake, trying hard to help me get myself together.

"Listen, here! Sit down for a moment alpha and concentrate."

I walked a few steps backwards and sat down roughly on an old cushioned chair, brushing my fingers against my beard in frustration.

"Look at me alpha!" He said firmly, yet gently, trying to balance himself between doing the duty of a beta, yet not exceeding his status.

My eyes turned to look at his as I squeezed my hands firmly against the chair's armrest, feeling my wolf on the verge of winning. As I was breathing heavily, Jake lowered himself down to my level and tried to speak to me in the hopes of calming me down.

"Listen, Luka, I need you to stay here and rest."

"No!" I yelled in frustration, not wanting to be left behind, almost standing back up from the chair.

"No, listen! Just listen, Luka!" He screamed back, pushing me back on the chair.

"You have given me a duty! I vowed to be by your side and that is what I am doing right now! You need to stay here and rest! In the meantime I will vow to you that my body and spirit will not rest until your son, our next alpha and king would be back living with us! I promise you, alpha king of all wolves!" He spoke firmly, bowing down to me.

I kept gaping at him bowed down as my body was tense against the chair. Suddenly I felt the desire to accept his offer and give all my trust to him. After all, he has proven to me on multiple occasions that he served me well and with honour since our first meeting.

I stood up wincing from the chair as I held my wound, now getting my senses back.

"Stand up from there beta!" I said roughly. "You know I don't want you to bow, but you speak just like a beta should. I trust your words Jake more than you know. What you promised means a lot to me! For once I will obey and wait for my son's return."

I nodded, showing him that my answer was of certainty, then he gently lifted himself, gave a nod in return and rushed down the stairs to start the search.

Walking into my bedroom I found Mei curled up on the bed naked, with the bedspread and her worn clothes torn into pieces.

"Did you turn?" I asked, worried she might have.

"Mhm," she mumbled in between sobs, breathing heavily.

"Oh no Mei," I sighed, trying to find the right words.

Since she was pregnant she didn't want to shift in fear of losing the child as most doctors suggest. Shifting during pregnancy can cause miscarriage, but it was not of certainty, therefore there was still hope that the pup was just fine.

"Come here," I said as I sat down on the bed beside her, burying her face onto my chest as she wept and shook.

"Jake has sworn to me that he will not rest until our son is found. Mei, he will find our son! I know it! I just know it," I repeated, holding her tightly as I rocked our bodies, trying to comfort her.