Theo's breathing was slightly heavy. He was suppressing his emotions.
I continued to speak like a puppet being manipulated. "When I left three years ago, I truly hated you and thought that I would stay away from you forever. I figured that I was destined to be alone for the rest of m y life because I was already abandoned after I was born. Otherwise, the heavens would punish me.”
After a pause, I took a deep breath and continued, "But I realized that I often dreamed of you, and I often had flashbacks of the times we spent together. That's why I conceded when I saw you in Zenon. If I can't hate anyone, then I would have to bear the pain in silence. I would deserve it.”
Though if resentment and pain were accumulated in my heart for too long with nowhere to vent out, they would start to grow wildly. It would become impossible to let go.
Theo said, "After you left, I returned to the empty house and it was cold everywhere. I would jolt awake every night, and my dreams would be full of you and our child's cries. I fell into endless regret. Keith advised me to move, but I didn't want to because if I moved, I wouldn't be able to feel your presence
anymore.
"Wanda, I was struggling painfully as well."
I looked up at him and saw that his gaze was unusually soft. He grabbed my hand and placed it on his chest. "You’ve always been the only one here. I was just too foolish to do all those things I thought were good for you, only to end up hurting you deeply."
I breathed a long sigh and realized that I should not have allowed myself to drown in the quagmire of the past, so I said, "Theo, I think I need to think very carefully about this myself."
If Theo had not swapped the DNA report in the first place, the child in my womb would not have died. Therefore, Theo was the one in the wrong.
However, the only reason why Theo swapped the DNA report was that he was worried that Grayson would get in trouble and implicate me. Therefore, he was not wrong when looking at things this way.
There were many things in this world where rights and wrongs were impossible to judge. When it came to family relationships, how should one decide who to hate?
Humans did things out of love, but the result of that left everyone scarred. Who exactly was in the wrong, then?
Back in the bedroom, Theo headed for the bathroom.
I called out to him, "Can we sleep separately tonight?"
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