Chapter 673 Getting Back Together
Toby had never told anyone what his real problems were. It was also why no one ever told him he wasn’t wrong to exist, that he wasn’t the one who killed his own mother.
So, in all those years, he couldn’t get over this darkness, and it only grew in size over time. He was only numbing himself with alcohol at the start, but it progressively turned so bad that he began to inflict self-harm.
And now, Sonia was the first person who told him that his mother never regretted giving birth to him and that he hadn’t killed his own mother. His existence was acknowledged and accepted, and it was by the person he loved the most. Naturally, he could ease his troubled mind a bit, and he started to be more optimistic.
Sonia didn’t know what Toby was thinking, of course. But when she heard that he was now more optimistic thanks to her help, she was glad.
This meant that regardless of whether it was before or after getting drunk, he still listened to her and remembered her words.
It also meant that even when he was drunk, he was still most loyal to her.
“Toby.” Sonia put a drumstick on Toby’s plate. “Let’s see a psychologist when we have time, okay?”
“Psychologist?” Toby subconsciously frowned.
Sonia nodded slightly. “Yes, a psychologist. It has been more than ten years since your mother passed away, so it’s about time you let that go. Do you really want to spend that day every year in pain just because you can’t let go?”
At that, she put down her cutlery and looked at the man sternly. “Do you know, Toby? Grandma had always been worried about that side of you, and now that she’s advanced in age, I’m sorry to say this, but her days are numbered. Do you want her to be worried about you until the end? At her age, she’s supposed to live her retired life in peace and happiness, not worrying about her grandson. We have selfishly caused her to worry too much, and I really don’t want to see her still worrying about us in the future.”
Toby pursed his thin lips, remaining silent.
Sonia rubbed her temples and continued, “There’s also me, Toby. Do you want me to worry about you like this every year?”
“Of course not!” Toby immediately replied.
Sonia stared at him. “If not, then you have to get professional help.”
Toby lowered his gaze. “I’ll think about it.”
“There’s nothing to consider.” Sonia frowned. “You have to agree right away to things like this instead of thinking about it. So, you have to agree. If not, let’s not get back together after all. I don’t want a moody lover, much less worry about him every year. It’s very tiring for me. So, if we don’t get back together, we won’t have any relationship with each other, so I won’t have to care no matter what happens to you. If I don’t care about you, I won’t have to worry, and hence I won’t be tired.”
Hearing her words, Toby immediately constricted his pupils. Instantly, he sprang from his seat, stood up, cutlery still in his hands, and grabbed her shoulders so hard that his veins popped. He seemed to be a little too emotional as he cried, “Don’t! Sonia, that will not happen!”
He had worked so hard to move her heart again and gain her forgiveness, and she had agreed to get back together with him. Now, they were certain to get back together in a few days, but she had changed her mind.
So, what have I been working so hard for? I did everything to get her back, so I can’t bear to lose her now. No, no, no! This can’t be! Ugh!
Seeing Toby’s agitated behavior, Sonia knew she had disturbed him by threatening to change her mind. After all, he had been trying so hard to court her, and even though she had agreed to get back together with him, she had yet to do so.
He had always been in an unstable mental condition, and he felt insecure. So, now that he heard her saying that she wouldn’t get back together with him, his reaction was strong.
With an internal sigh, Sonia pressed her hand on Toby’s in an attempt to comfort him. “I can still get back together with you, but you have to promise me that you’ll see the psychologist. I said before that if you don’t get better, even if we get back together, I’ll still have to experience this fatigue every year in the future. Maybe when that time comes, we might break up again.”
“We won’t.” Toby tightened his grip on her shoulder. “We won’t break up. I promise you that I’ll see the psychologist.”
Actually, he had known all along that he couldn’t continue like this, for he might destroy himself one day. Even if he didn’t destroy himself, the world would know about this weakness sooner or later. After all, there was nothing that could be hidden forever in this world.
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