Through the Screen novel Chapter 76

noah sinks further into his office chair, his eyes almost struggling to not fall shut, his glasses resting on the bridge of his nose crookedly because he had no will to put on contact lenses today.

the screen of his computer is blaring, the harsh light almost unforgiving as an unedited advertisement blinks exaggeratedly in front of him, silently mocking noah and asking him to complete his work before he loses his job as well.

he's already lost a lot of things.

his fingers move aimlessly across the keyboard,the mouse of his computer scratching against it's pad, and noah can feel himself being drawn closer to the edge every time he miss clicks and has to start all over again.

his mind is focused on abel, his accusations making way into noah's brain and scattering all the thoughts he seemed to have collected, returning noah's state of mind back to being messy and uncoordinated and simply, incomprehensible.

noah almost feels guilty for not trusting abel. he had been accusing his own husband of cheating on him for the past couple months and if the pain of one single day is getting to noah this much, he can't even comprehend what he has put abel through.

yet again, the reason of their problems was stemming from noah. he had been so irrational, so irresponsible and so inconsiderate towards his family, always thinking about himself, his feelings, his issues, his anxiety. he has been so terribly selfish and no amount of apologies can fix his actions, or their consequences.