Twice Tempted: Between Two Alphas (Mia and Cameron) novel Chapter 51

Chapter Fifty-One

“No!” It’s an instinctual reaction. I shove him off me, using all my strength.

Cam’s expression falls.

I’ve…rejected him.

He shakes his head, crushed.

I don’t want to hurt him.

But it doesn’t feel right. I don’t know why I feel this way or how I know it. “We can’t,” I tell him.

“We just did,” he says calmly, even though I know he’s not. “And we certainly fucking can.”

I shake my head and sit up on this bed. My hands are shaky. I clasp them together. “Ashley?” he growls. “Is this about her?”

Yes. But only partly.

I love this man.

My wolf recognizes him as our mate.

But the time in my life when I was mindless with love, rendered thoughtless by passion… that time has come and gone.

I can’t just think about myself now.

“You’re still mated to another woman,” I remind him. “The same woman whose family is hell-bent on war.”

I don’t dredge up the fact that she already tried to kill me once.

“We need to understand the bigger threats surrounding us, Cam. We have to do what’s best for our children.”

It’s the wrong thing to say. He snaps his head back like I’ve slapped him. “I will always protect my children. And I am the Alpha–protecting my pack from threats is my sole purpose.”

I’m not trying to offend him, but clearly I am.

“Cam…what are you doing here?”

He looks tired now. “I flew down here to accompany you. So you wouldn’t be alone. So I would know you were protected. So our children would know you were protected.”

Part of me is so happy.

Part of me is… disappointed. It’s as if he doesn’t trust me to take care of myself, or as if he doubts my intelligence and capabilities. And what does that mean that he should leave the Pack just because I chose to go off somewhere?

If something happens while he’s gone, he’ll blame me.

They will all blame me.

I draw my clothes back on.

Making love to Cam was everything I dreamed of.

And now I just want to cry.

I rub a hand along my neck and it comes away with blood. Not a lot. But enough to know he’d intended to mark me.

I stare at the blood on my hands for a long time. I wanted him to mark me. For years, I’d waited and hoped that I could someday have him claim me. I remember thinking how proud I’d be to have his mark on my skin, so everyone would know that we belonged to each other.

“Don’t look so disappointed,” he tells me. He’s angry now.

I’ve hurt him. Deeply.

“It’s not for the reasons you think.” I sigh. “I assume you know why I’m here.”

He nods. “Your father is my beta.” He’s jerking his clothes back on too. “You should think about that. It put him in a bad place.”

“Did he tell you where I was going?” I need to know if my dad’s loyalty is to me or to his Alpha.

“He didn’t have to, our kids did.”

Cam frowns.

I hate that I ruined this moment. I hate that I’m conflicted. This man is everything I’ve ever wanted and yet…something doesn't feel right.

When he tried to mark me…I panicked. I don’t understand it, I just know at that moment I didn’t want him to do that to me.

He opens the door. I have no idea whose room we just debauched, but I feel like I need to leave a note or have the sheets laundered or something.

“It’s just sex, Mia.”