From the deepest part of her heart, from her most primitive brain instincts, the name Dixon was the origin of all her misfortunes.
Sonia mumbled unconsciously, "I hate Dixon... Dixon Donald... I hate myself too..."
Carney saw that Dixon, who was looking at Sonia through the glass window, had changed his expression from worried to shock at that moment.
After the shock, his eyes appeared with an unexplained sense of pain.
He actually would be hurt... by such a woman...
Sonia was hypnotized. Yet she still... Remembered Dixon.
How deeply did this hatred go? Even love could no longer override its power.
"Hate his guts" was not just a figure of speech.
Dixon faced the glass window and looked at Sonia, who was in tears. She was not awake, but her expression was full of pain.
At that moment, Dixon felt that his psychological defenses had collapsed. He wanted to rush in and say to Sonia, 'stop doing this. Let's start over. Please give me a chance to make it up to you.'
But Sonia was not the same Sonia as before.
She was now not moving forward and staying at the spot to shrink herself into a ball. She sealed up her heart and cut herself off from the world.
Dixon would rather turn back the clock to the time when Sonia was in her previous state. At that time, she hated him. But at least, she was alive, like a sharp blade. But now?
Dixon wandered outside the door for a long time. Later, the doctor helped Sonia walk out. With Doctor Hoober's help, she stumbled forward. But her eyes did not open. Her brain was still asleep.
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