When Her Death Couldn't Break Him (Cecilia and Nathaniel) novel Chapter 1898

Chapter 1898 Do You Want To Be With Him
Seeing her upset, Scorpius immediately lifted his head. His eyes were red. Queenie saw it too, and despite herself, her heart ached.

“Mdm. Queenie, I'm not trying to upset you. I just really don't want to get married, so please stop trying to push me,” Scorpius said, almost in a pleading tone.

“Is it because of me?” Queenie asked, frowning.

Scorpius struggled to hold back his emotions.

Queenie looked at him seriously. “I've said this before, and I'll say it again—I'm not going to be with you.”

Those words hit him like a knife to the throat. He swallowed hard and nodded stiffly. “I... know.”

“Are you really planning to spend the rest of your life alone?” Queenie couldn't understand him. Why was he so down, even though she'd already made things clear?

Scorpius was just that kind of man—stubborn through and through. He nodded again, firmly. “I don't see anything wrong with living alone. I know you don't like me. You don't want to be with me. I've known that for a long time. Me deciding not to marry has nothing to do with you.”

He continued, “And I made a promise to Ms. Cecilia. I told her I'd see you through to the very end. I've got to make up for the mistakes I made in the past.”

Queenie leaned against her pillow, breathing steadily. “All right. I won't bring it up again.”

Only then did Scorpius finally let out a breath of relief.

“There's one more thing.” Queenie looked over at him. “Let the past be the past. You don't have to carry that guilt anymore.”

“I can't do that!” Scorpius answered right away. “I nearly got Ms. Cecilia and Jon in trouble. If I just move on like nothing happened, I'll never forgive myself.”

That was the kind of person he was. Once he set his mind on something, there was no changing it.

Queenie didn't know what else to say. At her age, she understood—people didn't change. Once they'd grown into who they are, that was it.

“Fine. Do what you want,” she said.

Only then did Scorpius properly settle into his seat again. “Do you want me to call the doctor?”