When There Is Nothing Left But Love novel (Ashton and Scarlett ) novel Chapter 1742

But having lived thus far, I knew my life was no longer just mine. I couldn’t simply disregard John’s feelings after accepting his infinite care.

In the end, John was afraid that he would upset me, so he eased off before I could even respond to him. “Think about it carefully. I’ve never really stopped you from making your own choices, but it’s different this time. No matter the conflicts between the two of you in the past, Ashton was at least a decent person with good family background. Now, however, he’s cold-blooded and vicious. He keeps getting himself involved in illegal activities, challenging the government. That’s only courting death!”

After saying that, he continued, “You’ve got to understand something, Letty. We do our best to continue living in order to see more of the world and experience the love and beauty in this world, not to plunge into hell and be an emotionless machine with only profit in our eyes. I understand that you’re reluctant to accept the reality because you’re waiting for him to come to that realization like me. However, people are different. Although I was lower than pond scum, I never touched drugs. Your waiting is entirely meaningless.”

For some reason, Ashton’s words of “not smart enough” flashed across my mind when I heard John’s last few words. Now that I thought about it, the reference to that remark was rather vague. Was he referring to Joseph, or was he deliberately giving me a hint with words that carry a double meaning?

When I realized that I had zoned out, I immediately snapped back to reality. Alas, it was already too late. John wore a dark expression on his face, his very being exuding his chagrin at my inattentiveness.

Everyone had their bottom lines, and respecting him meant staying far away from his bottom line.

Of course, I was no saint either, for I had driven him through the roof more than once. Even if our relationship never suffered any ill effects, it still imperceptibly consumed our ardor. If I were to be wilful and selfish forever because of my love for Ashton, I would only end up like Rebecca.

Ashton, this is the last time I’m going to try with you.

Looking at John, I made my greatest resolution to date. “Let me try for the final time. There’s still one thing I’m uncertain about when it comes to him. When I know for sure, I promise to give you a definite answer.”