She was determined.
Jack froze on the spot.
His eyes widened as he stared at Amber with indescribable astonishment.
Under the faint yellow light, her haggard face looked extremely sullen.
She clenched her teeth tightly as pearly tears began to fall out of the corners of her eyes down her cheeks.
“You have always been my wife. This fact hasn’t changed even a bit.” Jack said.
*Smack*
Unable to contain her anger, Amber raised her hand and slapped Jack angrily across the face.
Jack was completely stunned.
In the face of her rebuttal, he was completely out of his wits, unable to make any sense of the matter.
Amber gritted her teeth and sobbed, “I came back to you when you were the most destitute, not for the glorious future but to stay with you for better or for worse and to help you make a comeback.”
“At the time when you endured the rumors and slanders, I chose to believe you regardless of everything. I stood firmly in front of you and took all kinds of insults for you.”
“I still held your hand when thousands of fingers pointed at you and you were at the verge of despair and didn’t let go.”
……
Her heartbreaking cries stabbed Jack’s heart like a sharp knife.
Amber took a deep breath, restrained her sobs forcibly and stared decisively at Jack.
“I chose you! That means you will be my man forever, in life or in death.”
Her voice raised tremblingly, “What about you?”
“Me?” Jack frowned deeply.
Amber sobbed shudderingly, her tears were falling and her red lips were trembled, “Have you ever considered me your wife? Have you ever taken the initiative to keep me besides you and let me face everything with you? Why must you fight everything by yourself? Do you think husband and wife are just two birds in a forest who fly different ways as soon as a disaster strike?”
A series of questions were pointed towards Jack.
By the time Amber was at her last sentence she was sobbing so much that her voice was almost lost.
Jack mumbled to himself, “I just didn’t want to make you worried, didn’t want you to be in danger. I was just trying to protect you.”
“I don’t want all that!”
Amber shook her head as tears streamed down her face, “What I want is for you to treat me like your wife. I don’t care whether you are safe and happy or dying in the face of danger, I want you to hold my hand tightly and keep me close to you! I don’t want you to bear everything alone while I stay safe.”
Jack looked like he had been struck by lightning. His heart thumped ferociously.
An intense choking feeling engulfed him.
His whole state of mind felt chaotic and messy.
The sound of Amber’s cries echoed in his ears.
Since the moment he had decided to be with Amber, he had always tried to give her only joy and happiness. He had never wanted to make her unhappy or let her face any danger.
He had always thought that “To make you the happiest woman in the world” was the most beautiful happiness in the world.
But he had never put himself in her shoes. He had never carefully thought from Amber’s perspective.
“Jack, you are really selfish!”
Amber bit her lip so hard that it bled. She shook her head and smiled bitterly, “You are so selfish that you can’t even let your wife to share the dangers and the sorrows with you. You always consider yourself alone! Do you know or not, since the day I came to you, you are no longer alone?”
“You hide everything from me and bear it all alone, so that you would rather have me think that you died than to let me know that you are alive in the time of a crisis. Do you know that because of your selfishness, I can’t even live properly nor die! You have always been like this! What is even the point of our marriage?”
“Amber!”
Jack’s complexion changed suddenly.
He panicked.
Amber’s words had extreme decisiveness to them.
Losing his mind out of fear, Jack grabbed her hands hurriedly, “I was wrong! I have been very wrong all this time! I am sorry. I am really sorry! I was very selfish. I just wanted to give you happiness and protect you from pain and sorrow. I was very selfish! Please calm down! Our marriage is important, please don’t be impulsive!”
Frantic and terrified, Jack’s heart was full of guilt and remorse.
He had never felt such flustering restlessness.
Regardless of his divorce with Kathrine at that time, or facing life-threatening danger this time, he had always been able to keep his breath steady and calmly move forward step by step to look for life even in desperate situation.
But facing Amber right now, all of Jack’s morale faded away.
Because his love for her was too deep, he was afraid of losing her.Because he was afraid of losing her, he was panicking and terrified.
Amber struggled angrily, trying to remove her hands from Jack’s hands.
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