Amber had a heart-piercing wailing, which was extremely heartbreaking.
Jack forced to hold back tears, his mouth with some blood stain trembled slightly, "But I only want you. Even if the whole world collapsed someday, I still want you only."
"The child is gone, but we can have another one. I know I’m very selfish. It shouldn’t come from a soon-to-be father, but if I lose you, my future would be meaningless."
"Without you, it would be like I bury my soul before I am actually died."
If Mr. Ward’s appearance could be called bringing a trace of light into his completely dark world at the beginning and turning the original world into black and white world.
Then Amber’s company with him no matter what was to add color to his black and white world.
All the memories being with her were unforgettable.
Only through the hardships during the beginning of marriage did Jack know clearly about how much Amber loved him.
He did hesitate when he made the decision last night.
Everyone would be hesitated, even for one second, when facing this kind of things.
But after being kicked by Director Lansing, his hesitation disappeared, and only Amber’s face left in his mind.
Without the child, he and Amber would be in pain, they would feel like a knife were piercing their hearts.
But without Amber, Jack was sure that his world would return to black and white again. No, even worse, it would be back in complete dark.
Amber was stunned, but she couldn't stop crying.
It was just the struggle gradually weakened.
She has no strength.
She was extremely weak plus she was in the midst of great compassion, she was gradually losing her strength.
Just a trace of hatred in her eyes while she was looking at Jack.
Jack could see it clearly. That trace of hatred was like a sharp sword which penetrated his heart.
He said, "Please forgive me for being selfish, I did that only because I want you."
Right after he said that.
Amber suddenly raised her head up.
Puff!
Her teeth bit on Jack's shoulder.
In an instant, the pain went down to his bone.
Jack groaned but did not resist it. He endured with resolutely eye sight, letting Amber bite on his shoulder.
He could feel her anger and hatred.
Jack could even feel Amber's teeth rubbing and chewing on his flesh, and he could hear the slight crunch from his bones.
If this made you feel better, ok you could bite me!
Jack thought that in his heart, closed his eyes and silently endured it.
He knew Amber's pain, and silently accepting this bite was his way to share the pain for her.
As a husband, but he did not protect his wife and children well, and this bite he took couldn’t even close to pay his debt!
She was sobbing.
Amber bit on Jack's shoulder and then she loosen her teeth, started whimpering and sobbing by his shoulder.
Jack could clearly feel that the pressure on his shoulders reduced a lot.
Instead, Amber cried even harder.
Jack tried to adjust his posture, then slowly raised his hands to hug Amber. He gently rubbed on Amber's back with his right hand.
"Sorry, it's my fault, I failed to protect you both."
"I knew you wanted to protect your children, but I made the decision. Everything was my fault."
"I only want you, even the child is gone, as long as you stay safe, we can still have another baby. It is my incompetence that lead the little angel doesn’t make it through..."
Every word he said was revealing a strong sense of self-blame.
While comforting Amber, Jack's tears also quietly burst from his eyes.
He worked overtime yesterday in order to spend a whole day with Amber and their baby today.
But he never thought that overtime work caused him and Amber lost their children.
If he hadn't worked overtime at that time, but he was at home, maybe... the scene wouldn’t happen at all.
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