Zero and Beauty's Breath (A Satan Sniper's Motorcycle Club Series Book 3 - 4) novel Chapter 54

“You won't take me with you to see the horses?” Hannah's daughter Jo asks me. She has her entire face shoved in mine by the bar.

Zero and the other fully patched members are downstairs in the basement, having Church.

Whisp and Chadley are preparing food for everyone while Den and Jade guard the main gate.

I have been sitting here in the bar googling random shit, and babysitting Jo. But my mind is on finding Lucca, killing Thorn and finishing this shit with the club. Putting an end to these killings has now taken first place for the club but not to me. I see all of them as important.

What I don't think about is the new life growing inside my body. My mind shies away from that part which should be the most important piece in my life.

The last time it happened, the life growing inside of me was all I could think about. I was amazed that a filthy beggar as myself could carry a life. Something so precious.

Look where that ended up.

This is the part where I am supposed to think that this time is different, that I am different, but that would be a foolish thought.

I am much worse than I was. So, although I want to think about it, or how I am going to tell Zero, I do neither. I concentrate on the fucked-up parts of my life and a few sweet yet annoying ones. For instance, the little girl that acts like a boy who is currently blinking at me waiting for my answer to change. She is persistent.

“Fine, I’ll take you, just not now kid, why don't you go get me one of those muffins Chadley made?”

“If I do that, AFTER will you take me to see the horses? Pleeeeease Beggar, my papa said he ain't takin’ me to see shit until I fess up.” Her curly hair reminds me of a barbie doll. Those naughty eyes and thick eyebrows resemble a she demon.

The kid is cute, and has one hell of mean streak in her, but she is straight up.

When I got back earlier and heard the little demon screaming Papa, I was speechless to find out she was referring to River.

What shocked me more was that River was planning on proposing this week to Hannah. All the members of the club were coming to Kanla in a few days and one of those members so happened to be Zero’s dad, Toad.

Not sure how that was going to play out. The last time he came to Kanla while I was around was the night I ran away from the clubhouse.

Zero said he came around a few times while Kylie and I were Lucca's prisoners. Zero also mentioned that his dad knew about my connection to Lucca but not my connection to his brother, Thorn.

That piece of information is the most important part, it holds my identity in his eyes. I wonder a lot at night about his dad’s reaction to me when he finds out that I am not just the woman his son sleeps next to, but I am his other son’s killer.

Even now as I sit here with this innocent girl looking at me with such trusting eyes, I am still a killer and my death toll has not reached its limit yet.