Zero and Beauty's Breath (A Satan Sniper's Motorcycle Club Series Book 3 - 4) novel Chapter 58

“I have nothing Zero, I can't, don't.”

Hurt curls my insides.

She knows her words cut deep and like her, she pushes me away. Turning her back to face me, as she has done before. Blocking me out.

When emotions run high, Beauty wants to hide. Not now. She can't keep hiding.

“Don't hide from me Amariya, I want to see you.” My words are raised, the command in my tone not filtered.

“I can't Zero, please, don't do this.”

“Look at me.” I plead in a loud voice, begging the woman I love and for once she does.

“You want to know, you really want to know why I can't give you what you want. Why if you stay with me all we will have is this, a wedge.” She screams at me, her eyes wild as they look at me, showing me the killer within.

“Yes, I deserve to know.”

She laughs but it is as hollow as the person who stares at me, “I WILL kill your brother Zero. I will end things with Lucca and when all that is done, I will never see my daughter again, you really want to know what I think? I’LL TELL YOU WHAT I KNOW. Love is not an emotion Zero, It is a moment before death and I hope your brother got his because his death is near.”

“So your love for me won't change your mind?” I ask her. Well aware that I sound accusing as her eyes lock onto me, unblinking, stabbing me to death with just those deep soulless black depths, like Onyx.

It feels like she is killing me, destroying my life.

“I told you an eye for an eye. Your brother will pay like all the others before him.”

“What happened between you and my brother?”

She is quiet as she walks further away from me, then she turns back and her soulless depths sink into me, reminding me of a time that seems like an eternity ago, the day Beauty first wrapped her hands around me and jumped on the back of my bike.

And that day she left a grown man like me speechless and I know as she opens her mouth that this will be much worse.

“Sixteen and pregnant on the streets was hard, add in getting hunted by my crazy ex, it was almost impossible.

I pull her into my arms, and she lets me hold her. My mind works hard to think of ways to change her mind, as my heart rips into different sides because what my brother did is unforgivable.

He hurt her, he tied a fucking collar on her neck, and he dropped her baby.

How much of that is true, I don't know. I feel like I am caught between two waterfalls. Both options equal similar endings. Me getting split in two. I don't have another option.

In Beauty's mind, he killed her baby, he set off a dark chain of events and ultimately added a ticker to his already short lifespan.

But weren't paralyzing him enough. I try hard to put myself in her shoes, to wrap my head around her version of the story. He said the baby was born dead, she said he dropped the kid but doesn't that both equal a mistake.

I can't choose her and not lose him, and I can't choose my brother without letting Beauty go and I can't let her go, I tried.

But soon I am going to have to make a choice. I squeeze her tighter like my subconscious is already preparing itself for that loss. Like she has already lost, hadn't she lost enough already.

“Come on, let's leave all this deep shit for tomorrow, let's take a ride.”