"We can't simply forget about that," Emily replied. "It's not that easy..." She knew that Jacob was too deep in his emotional entanglement with her. Even though he was trying to forgive her, but from the bottom of his heart, he couldn't find himself forgiving her for having sex with Jack. After all, dodging the matter would not solve their problems. If they went on like this, this matter would turn into a time bomb between them which would explode one day. And the emotional damage would be far greater.
"Don't worry! We can forget about it!" Jacob exclaimed stubbornly with a determined look on his face.
"Jacob, please. Be more sensible, would you?" She took a few deep breaths to calm herself down and continued, "We're over."
They couldn't get along as well as they used to, no matter how hard they tried. Damage had been done and was already imprinted in their minds and hearts.
Those hurtful words that they said to each other could never be taken back.
It was like trying to reconstruct a broken mirror. Even if the pieces were successfully put together, the rift between them would always be there.
Emily was disappointed with Jacob and more with herself.
"I won't allow it." Jacob wouldn't accept that kind of treatment from her to him at all. He leaned over to her and said in a serious tone near her ears, "I love you, and you love me too. That's more enough for us to continue being together."
"Jacob, we can't lie to ourselves. I don't believe you don't mind that I had sex with..." Emily was interrupted because Jacob kissed her lips firmly.
As he kissed her passionately, he wrapped his hands around her tiny waist. Emily tried to pull away but his lips were fully planted on hers.
They finally broke the kiss when Emily was slightly out of breath. Jacob straightened up slowly and let go of her. "Don't say that anymore. Let us not mind it anymore."
She could only look at his eyes, sighing helplessly.
Even if they could pretend that nothing happened, deep down they both knew something was no longer the same. With that lurking around and gnawing at them bit by bit, how long would their relationship last?
Neither of them knew.
They couldn't find the right way to save their relationship. They could only rely on band-aid solutions which might cause more harm in the future.
Since that evening, Jacob changed his attitude toward Emily. He indulged her. He followed what she wished aside from letting her out.
However, she wasn't touched by this. She chose to stay rational and treated him lukewarmly. She felt trapped in the villa. She wanted to be free but she couldn't do anything.
Jacob's forgiveness was nothing more than empty words. He still distrusted her and tried to control her.
The situation was getting worse. She knew they needed to find a outlet, one way or the other. Either they broke out, or they drowned in such suffocating silence.
Finally, she could not bear anymore. She summoned up all her courage and spoke up, "Jacob, I am also human not some caged pet! I want you to let me go out!" She was a bit nervous due to what Jacob had done and there was some fear remaining in her psyche.
"Won't it be better if you just stay home? Why do you want to go out?" Jacob tried not to sound irritated.
Emily saw it clearly and felt that he was suppressing all negative emotions. He tried to pretend that he wasn't suffering from them.
His emotional state worried her, hence making her uncomfortable.
"I'm not your puppet! I don't need to be dictated by you. Even a dog gets some time to take a walk!" Emily exploded. She felt that she would go crazy anytime soon if he still kept her inside.
Unexpectedly, Jacob didn't lose his temper. He looked at her gently. "Why would you compare yourself with a dog? To be frank, I've been busy these days. When I'm free, I'll take you out. Okay?"
Emily looked straight at him, "I just wanted to know. Can you let me out? I want to go to work. I want to do what I want and I want a normal life. Can you give me that?"
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