"It doesn't matter," Jacob replied. His voice had a cold and flat tone, so Emily couldn't tell whether he was angry or not. Instead of dragging the conversation, she decided not to say anything more.
Beryl's eyes were red and swollen. Clear watery snot streaked from her flaring nostrils, down her red mottled skin and to her open quivering lips. She stretched out her arms towards Jacob and said, "Handsome uncle, I need a hug."
Jacob's aching heart was relieved by her affection, as he moved closer and hugged the little cute girl in his arms. Surprisingly Emily didn't stop either of them, and just watched silently from the side. Perhaps she didn't say anything because she felt guilty for treating Jacob rudely, or maybe she felt very happy to see Jacob and Beryl getting along with each other so nicely.
Beryl wrapped her arms around Jacob's neck happily and whispered in his ears, "Sorry, handsome uncle. I made Mommy scold you."
Beryl thought that she was to blame for what had happened because if she had explained to her mother clearly, maybe Emily wouldn't have lashed out at Jacob like that. Burdened with a guilty conscience, Beryl lowered her head and waited for Jacob's forgiveness.
Jacob's heart melted like butter on hot toast at the sight of Beryl's apologetic face. Not only did he forgive her, he had long forgotten about the harsh words Emily had said to him.
With a warm smile on his face, Jacob brushed his hand through Beryl's hair and said, "It's okay. It doesn't matter anymore."
"Thank you, handsome uncle! You are so nice!" Beryl smiled at him happily and rested her head on his shoulders.
Beryl's words threw Jacob into deep thoughts. Was he really a nice man?
All he did was brought her outside to play for one day, and that was enough for her to think he was a good man? Beryl had no idea that, as her father, he should have been there by her side since the day she was born. He didn't fulfill his fatherly duties, nor did he give her the love she deserved to have as a child. He had left her with an incomplete childhood.
Moreover, he even tried to force her mother to give her up and take away her chance to see this world.
Was he really a good father? Not by any means. If anything, he was the most irresponsible father in the world.
Jacob eventually understood why Emily was so nervous and disapproving of him. It was because after all this time, even before Beryl was born, he had done nothing for the good of the child.
Jacob was overcome with grief when he realized that he had failed to be a good father to Beryl. While he was wallowing in self-pity, suddenly, a soft and tender kiss landed on his face. Stunned, he froze for a while before he realized that Beryl had kissed him and was staring at him with an innocent smile.
"Don't be sad," Beryl comforted him with her lovely voice. "It was not your fault," she pointed at Emily quietly and continued, "Mommy always overreacts to everything."
"Your Mommy was just worried about you." Jacob found her so adorable that he wanted to spoil her, but he knew that he had to perform his duty as a responsible father, so he turned his smile into a stern face and said, "You should try to be an obedient child, and you should always listen to your Mommy, okay?"
Beryl stared at Jacob in a daze as she listened to Jacob. The most perfect feeling she had ever known had swept through her. For some inexplicable reason, she felt that he would be her hero, her keeper, the one who would comfort her and keep her safe.
Beryl found herself getting closer and closer to Jacob, as if some unknown force behind her was pushing her towards him. She leaned her head on his shoulder and wrapped her arms more tightly around his neck. There was an immense comfort in his arms, that was only for her to feel.
As if... As if she was leaning on her father's shoulder.
Beryl felt an intense feeling of love, that was albeit, foreign to her, and yet comforting in ways she had never felt before.
"Emily," said Jacob. Looking at Emily gently, he held Beryl in his arms and continued, "Now that we are in a hospital, I would like to have a paternity test done."
Jacob's sudden request left them both in a moment of dreadful silence.
Emily thought about it for a while and slowly opened her mouth, "Do you see any need for it?" "I don't want to put Beryl through any of this, okay?" Emily refused.
"You just don't trust me," Jacob sighed and forced a smile. "You should know, you didn't do anything wrong to me four years ago," Jacob explained, as his voice trembled. He felt helpless for not being able to explain the truth to Emily and let her come back to his side.
"I blame myself for what happened four years ago," Emily insisted.
"But if I had known the truth at that time, I would have still made the same decision!" Jacob persuaded, hoping to change Emily's mind.
"Enough! Stop it!" Emily shouted angrily at Jacob. She did not want to discuss such matters in front of Beryl, nor did she want the truth to take away Beryl's innocence. Most importantly, she didn't want to think of her bitter past.
Emily took Beryl away from Jacob and stood up to leave, before she said, "Just forget it and let us be."
Overcome with sadness, Jacob chokes in the air. His head hung low, as he helplessly watched them walk away and gradually disappear. The happiness in his eyes waned and gave way to loneliness and suffering.
'Why didn't she want to know the truth? Did she not love me anymore?' Jacob thought bitterly.
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