#Chapter 325 – Finally. Finally.
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I cry out as I’m pulled backwards – surprised more than hurt and suddenly I’m pressed against
him in the pouring rain. Roger holds me tight, one hand around my upper arm, the other wrapped
firmly around me, pressing my body to his
And the feel of him, of his skin hot against my own – my towel is gone, I have no idea where — I
cry harder at the feel of him and rest my forehead against his chest, because I know I can’t have it
– I can’t-
“Cora!” Roger shouts, above the wind and the rain. “What – Cora! What the hell are you doing?!”
“I can’t!” I sob. “I can’t do this, Roger! I can’t be with you like this, not if you’ll….you’ll never love
me! I can’t have you in half measures!” I look up at him then, into his face, realizing the truth of it
in that moment. “I can’t do this if you can’t take me for who I am! Human! Broken! Complicated,
difficult! Confused, and jealous, and mad pretty much all the time! If you can’t take me like that,” I
shout, begging now, “then let me go, Roger! Because I can’t –”
I glance back in the direction of the hotel, my sobbing breaths tearing at my lungs, “I can’t have
half of you. I can’t have – just…. lust. It will kill me! It will break my heart, and I’ll never survive it!”
With the last words I pound my free hand against his chest, my palm slapping wet against his
skin.
Roger stares down at me as I confess everything to him- my whole heart – listening to every
word. And then, when I’m done, when the words stop pouring from my mouth and all that’s left is
my panting breath, he tightens his arms around me, giving me an angry little shake. He clenches
his jaw and I can tell that he’s mad – but I have no idea why.
“God damn it, Cora,” Roger growls, glaring down at me. “You’re my fucking mate.” 5
And then he sweeps me up in his arms, the gesture not at all sweet or romantic – but possessive,
and conclusive, incensed. “All I’ve ever wanted is all of you – my whole life, I’ve been waiting for
die because there was no denying that all I want – all I’ll ever want is this –”
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And then he kisses me, his mouth hard on mine, and my body reacts instantly, my back arching
and pressing myself harder against him. My arms are around his neck, pulling him closer to me,
my mouth open to him as every piece of me – every molecule – gives in.
He’s mine. Mine, something in me screams to the universe. And god damn it, if I can have him
And the universe responds, lightening cracking above us, the rain pouring around us as Roger
presses me fervently too him and ravages my mouth with his kisses me like the world is falling
to pieces around us, which it very well might be. The water rushes around his ankles, threatening
to sweep us away. But Roger is adamant against it and something fierce within me sings that he
and I can weather it, that I’ve been a fool to run from this. That we can face this storm, and
whichever ones comes next.
My hand is on his face when Roger pulls away from me. “Come on,” he growls, his skin shivering
against the cold rain. Thunder cracks again as he turns back towards the safety of the motel. “I’m
getting you inside. Now.” Then he shakes his head at me, frustrated, and mutters “you idiot.”
I nod fervently, ignoring his insult, tucking my head against his shoulder and breathing hard as I
let him carry me back to the motel. Barely above the sound of the storm, I hear him growling more
frustrated words with every step, something about insane women who run naked into storms and
how he should have known better, because he’s met my sister, and madness is frequently genetic… 1
I’m shocked to find myself smiling, laughing a little and wrapping my arms more tightly around
his neck. Because Roger is about to find out precisely how crazy I can really be.
The door to our motel room is hanging open, blowing in the wind, but Roger ignores the rain
water pouring through it as he strides through the entrance, kicking the door shut behind him,
not bothering to lock it as he moves steadily towards the bed. When we get there he throws me.
down against the mattress, a little angry and not bothering to be gentle.
And, god damn it, but I laugh again – laugh, a little recklessly, as I bounce against the tired
springs of this worn out motel bed. Laugh, because he’s so fucking mad at me, and me at him, and
we’re both so mad at ourselves and I want to tear him to pieces, and I know he wants to do the
same to me –
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“Shut up,” Roger growls, ‘swiftly lowering himself to the bed and covering his body with mine. I
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