Accidental Surrogate for Alpha novel Chapter 415

#Chapter 415 – Three is Better than TWO

Ella

I’m really sobbing by the time that Cora tells me that her wolf led her to Roger’s wolf, and then to her pup – just ugly crying my little heart out in absolute happiness for my sister, as well as well, as well as in jealousy. Just a little bit.

“Ella!” Cora says, laughing and reaching out to put her hands on my shoulders. “Oh my god, I wouldn’t have told you if I thought you were going to react like this!”

“You’d better tell me!” I gasp between sobs, glaring at her. “You’d better text me every morning after you have a dream with your little pup in it! I want to hear everything! That is so amazing – what did he look like?”

“Well,” she says, biting her lip a little. “He’s still so small, so it’s hard to tell

And I start to cry again, making Cora roll her eyes and smack me on the knee.

“Okay, okay,” I say, taking a deep breath and working to steel myself. “I promise. I’ll keep it together.”

It’s a lie, but still – I will try.

“He had a little pink nose,” Cora says, grinning as I bite my lip. “And dark fur around his muzzle, just like Roger’s wolf has,” I press my eyes shut and clasp my hands to my chest. “And he has four little white paws – ”

“Okay stop,” I say, putting a hand out towards her and turning my face away. “That’s so cute – I can’t even handle it

She laughs then, and I control myself enough to open my eyes again and look at her, seeing that she’s shaking her head at me. “I can’t believe that you’re reacting like this, Ella,” she says, her voice awed. “I mean, you told me that you went running as your wolf in your dream and that Rafe was there, behind you! In little flashes!”

“Yes, but I didn’t get to touch him,” I say.

“Yes, you did,” she says, frowning at me. “When you I couldn’t reach Rafe through the bond, you told me that you found him in the forest! A full little baby! And you held him in your arms before he was born!”

“Cora,” I say, sighing and tilting my head to the side. “Don’t you see how that’s different?”

But she just stares at me, clearly not getting it, so I sigh and look down at my hands.

“Rafe was was sick, or something, and we were so worried we were going to lose him. What you and Roger got last night – you got to meet your baby, so young, and so healthy! With only happiness in his heart. All during my pregnancy with Rafe,” I say, glancing over at him, guilt running through me anew, “he went through so many terrible emotions.” I shake my head in my grief, remembering it. “Sinclair felt them more than I did – because he had his connection to Rafe sooner than me – but…”

When I look back at my sister, I see her nodding in understanding, her face fallen a little in pity.

“It’s good,” I say, reaching over our trays to take my sister’s hands and squeeze them. “I’m terribly envious – I’d have given anything to have my bond with Rafe as early as you do yours, and to have had him tell me so early that he feels happy, and to have met him as a little pup!”

I take a deep breath as Cora nods along with me, finally getting it.

“But,” I say, leaning forward and smiling at her. “I’m so glad that you got to have all of that, Cora. That is amazing. I want you to do it every night and then come and tell me all about it every day.”

“Done,” she says with a big happy breath, taking her hands from mine and laying down on the bed, propping her head up with her elbow. And then she studies me for a second before her face splits into a wicked little grin.” You know, Ella,” she says, “you could have it all – a second chance at it.”

“What?” I ask, confused.

“Stop breast feeding,” she says, nodding to Rafe. “Get pregnant. You’ll have the chance to do it all meet the little baby in the dream state, have a happy, healthy pregnancy – share it all with Sinclair, like you weren’t able to do with the first one.”

My breath hitches as I look over at Rafe, and then as I stare off into the distance, I…well, I actually let myself contemplate for real just how very much I want that. But still, there are so many reasons to hesitate…