Alpha alec's redemption (Sadie) novel Chapter 107

Sadie

My heart starts racing the moment the pilot announces that we will be touching down in the next five minutes. I don’t think I’ve ever been this anxious in my life. Not even when my water broke during labor.

Closing my eyes, I breathe in, then out, but the air gets stuck, and I feel suffocated. I keep reminding myself that things are going to be okay. That I am stronger now. That I don’t have anything to fear.

A hand grabs mine, and I turn to see Raven watching me with worried eyes.

“Are you okay?” she asks, her shifting between mine.

It’s been three years. Three good years, yet the fear of going back to Alec’s pack is still there.

I shake my head and stare at my lap, “No.”

This was so fucking hard. I thought that I’d gotten over my fear. I thought that I was doing okay. I thought that this would be a piece of cake. It isn’t. As much as I try to be strong, that terrified girl from three years ago is still buried inside me. She still shows her head once in a while.

It sometimes makes me wonder if I am indeed strong. If indeed I came out at the top… Or was it all just pretend. Was I lying to myself? Faking it in front of the others, but knowing deep down I’m nothing like I’ve portrayed myself to be.

Nyx’s warmth engulfs me. It feels like being held in a tight and fluffy hug. Despite the love I feel, it does nothing to wipe away the remnant tendrils of fear and agony.

“It’s going to be okay, Sadie,” Raven whispers, trying to assure me. “This time, things are different. This time, you are different.”

Sighing, I take a deep breath, then straighten my back. “You are right. I am different. No one can hurt me.”

“Exactly. No one will hurt you.”