Alpha alec's redemption (Sadie) novel Chapter 165

Fuck. What the hell was I doing? Why was I allowing him to hold me like this?

I aggressively pushed him away. He wasn’t prepared for my actions, so he stumbles a little bit, but releases me. I pull away, breathing hard, trying to clear my head from the spell that had been cast on me.

“Sadie?”

I raise my finger, indicating to him to give me a minute. When I calm down, I pull myself together before facing him. “Don’t ever touch me like that ever again, Alec.”

“You are my mate, Sadie? How can I not touch you?” he asked, advancing on me while I took steps back.

“Touch me? Remember how you were disgusted by my touch when you realized we slept together? And mate? You had a mate, Alec... Or have you forgotten that you told me Lola was the love of your life, and you wouldn’t touch me with a pole even if she wasn’t in the picture?”

“I believed she was my mate. What the hell was I supposed to do? I believed I betrayed her with you. How would you feel if you woke up and learned you slept with someone else? Someone who wasn’t your mate, and in doing so, you hurt the one you were in love with?”

I do get it. If things were different and Alec and I got together. It would have shattered me to realize he had slept with another woman a few days before our mating ceremony. The old me wouldn’t have retaliated in the way he did, but it would have hurt the same.

“That’s not the point,” I told him, taking more steps away from him. “The reason you want me now is because of the mate bond and what I can do for your pack. You never wanted me before. Hell, you never gave me the time of day. I am still the same woman I was back then, so it’s a bit pretentious for you to want me now, when you didn’t back then.”