Alpha alec's redemption (Sadie) novel Chapter 177

I was unable to think about anything else for the rest of the day. Nyx has shut herself from me, so there is no way I can reach her. I know what I felt. I know something big happened. Probably between Nyx, her former human, and Kaden, because why else would I have felt hurt and betrayed? Kaden must have done something to hurt her and her human.

I still in my seat as a thought strikes me. What if he killed her? He is evil, right? And that would also explain why Nyx feels hurt and betrayed on top of the anger and bitterness coursing through us. Maybe they knew each other before, and when Kaden turned dark, he killed her human. But that would mean Nyx is hundreds of years old, something we have already established. What it doesn’t answer is how the hell she even knows a demi-god.

I clutch my spoon and shake my head. The more I thought about things, the crazier I felt. It’s like I was starting to slowly lose touch with reality because the unanswered questions were driving me to insanity.

There was so much mystery surrounding Nyx and none of my theories came even close to answering any of them. If I am being honest, it freaking frustrates me. I don’t understand why she keeps saying I am not ready. Ready for what? How can I be ready if she doesn’t tell me what to do? How can I be ready when I am preparing blindly? How can I be ready when she’s keeping secrets from me?

Sighing. I am one of those kinds of people who can’t eat properly when they are stressed or anxious. I have no appetite, so I put my spoon down.

“Mommy, you okway?” Aspen asks in her soft and soothing voice. Her brows are pulled down a bit, and she looks a bit worried.

“I’m okay, my love. I’m just not that hungry,” I answer her. “Finish your dinner so we can go take a bath, then sleep.”

She nods her head and goes back to eating. Leaning back against my chair, I watch my sweet daughter eat. She’s making a mess, but I don’t care. I smile as my worries wash away in her presence. There is just something about Aspen. Maybe it’s the fact that she’s my baby, but she is able to bring a kind of peace by just being near her.

Whenever I would stress about the pack or Beth or the rest of my family, hell even Alec, I would just cuddle next to her and all my worries fade away. Her scent, her presence, and her unconditional love are my strength and my tether when my mind wages war.

“Done!” her cheerful scream pulls me from my thoughts.