Alpha alec's redemption (Sadie) novel Chapter 187

“I’ll win your love back. Mark my words!”

His words keep ringing in my head over and over again. I try to block them, to bury them, to ignore them, but nothing works. They keep playing in my head like a broken record.

I scoff at both his words and my inability to ignore them. It sounds ridiculous when you think about it. I mean, how does he think he’s going to win back my love? You can’t win back a love that’s already dead. You can’t win back something that you yourself destroyed.

I drop on a log once I am certain I’ve put some distance between us. I knew that coming back to his pack would be a challenge, but I never thought it would be this difficult.

Everywhere I turn, there are memories that haunt me. I have lived here since I was a baby. It’s hard to ignore almost twenty-one years’ worth of memories even though most of them become tainted when this pack, along with its leader and my best friend, turned their backs on me.

I take a deep breath and close my eyes. I can see them clearly. The memories of the naïve fool I used to be. I can still feel the love I had for Alec, as if it’s still alive in me somehow. I can even taste my tears every time I cried because, unknowingly, he broke my heart.

Looking back at my former self, I can’t help but be disappointed and disgusted. I can’t believe that I chased a man. I can’t believe I continued to chase after Alec even though I knew he would never consider me as a lover. That’s why I prayed so hard for him to be my mate, because I knew he wouldn’t have chosen me otherwise.

A chuckle full of mockery leaves my lips. I did get my wish, and my prayers were answered, but things didn’t go as I had expected. It honestly was the cruelest twist of fate.