Alpha alec's redemption (Sadie) novel Chapter 214

His words stopped anything I was going to say. I gaped at him, unable to say a single word as everything inside me felt like it just froze.

I stared in wonder as he shot up from his chair and started pacing the room. He seemed so agitated that I could almost feel my heart stopping for a second and went out to him.

“Alec,” I began but stopped when no word came out of my mouth.

I had no idea what to tell him or what to do. He had caught me completely off guard and surprised me to the core.

I didn’t expect this to be the reason. If I am being honest, I thought the reason why he wanted me to go back was selfish. I wanted it to be selfish. That way, I could convince my heart and mind that he is still the same arrogant and selfish man I’ve always known.

If you had told me that one day Alec would try to do something this selfless, I would have laughed in your face and told you to shut the fuck up… But here we are, and I don’t know what to do with it.

“I don’t want to lose you, Sadie,” he repeated. “I just can’t.”

He doesn’t stop in his pacing, just grabs his hair before shaking his head and letting go.

I’ve never seen him like this. He is always composed. Always put together. Even when Lola left him, he didn’t fall into this state. Yes, he was angry and resentful, but not this pitiful.

I rub my chest, trying to ease the discomfort. The bond was really working overtime to make me feel things that I didn't want to. I didn't want my heart going out to him. I didn't want to feel sorry for him. I didn't want to humanize him and I definitely didn't want to feel like his pain was my pain and his discomfort was mine too.