[BL] Accidentally Becoming the Healer of the Deranged Archduke novel Chapter 318

Chapter 318: Was It Worth It?

Useless trash! You are of no value to our family, only a stain!

Voices from people and his family he hadn’t heard in years echoed in the deep recesses of his mind. They sneered, taunting his fragility, jeering at his stupid self who had gone ahead to save others and ended up in a terrible situation.

Was that worth it, Xion? Was risking your own life worth it?

Minato-sensei’s voice lingered in his thoughts, sharpening the regret gnawing at every decision he’d ever made.

In his chaotic mind, he forgot that Minato-sensei would never say something like that. The old man would have smiled with his wrinkled face and would have praised him gently, for his courage and soulful heart.

But the cruel voices only grew louder.

"No," he mumbled with the numbing desperation. "I can’t. I don’t want to get used to this blindness."

Shaking his head in denial, he picked himself up again.

He took a deep breath and forced his legs to move toward where he assumed the door was.

"You are fine. You can do it. You can fight anyone."

Then he collided right into the table, and though he couldn’t properly see it, he felt the papers fall onto the floor in disarray.

These were the research papers he had painstakingly written just a few days ago.

The spherical crystal lamp rolled onto the ground, making a heavy noise as it tumbled before crashing into the closed doors.

Xion gulped. His throat ached from the amount of time he had suppressed the pained scream trying to rip apart from his vocal cords.

He walked again, stepping directly onto the ink-covered paper.

Thinking of something, he abruptly halted.

Cold seeped into his delicate soles turning them red, and yet Xion found himself unable to move.

He became reluctant to show this side to Darius. Surely if he managed to suppress it, if he got used to what little vision he had, he would be able to pretend to be fine, right?

All he had to do was wait for his system to become activated again. Even if it couldn’t restore his eyes back to their previous state, it would at least offer him something that would save him the pain of bumping into random things.

So, Xion with his long lashes cast downward turned around.

But whether it was a day or night, the time seemed to be against him. He slipped right onto the scattered papers and fell heavily.

All the tussle his body had gone through after waking up had consumed what little strength he had.

He lay there, curling into himself, silently wishing for the earth to break apart so he could bury himself in it.

The doors opened with a thud letting a stream of light inside. Even without lifting his head, Xion could tell that whoever had come inside was in a hurry.

The heavy footsteps thrashed against the floor, but Xion remained still.

"Xion?!"

In the next second, he was picked up by the strong arms. "Are you alright? Did you get hurt?"

They are pretty. Xion wondered if he would be able to comb it again. Though he couldn’t bring himself to look at it directly for now.

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