Returning to the Winslow Residence, Arwen had only taken a step inside her room when she was pulled back by her arm.
The sudden strength made her gasp, but before she could register what was happening, her back was pressed against the wall, and she was caged in between Aiden’s strong arms.
"You ... what are you doing?" she asked in a stutter, confused by his sudden action.
Hadn’t they been fine?
Then —
She looked into his eyes only to be paused. His eyes looked so dark, as if they had all the needed intent to drown the entire world into darkness.
Was he angry?
Did something happen?
The entire ride back home was pretty silent. Neither he spoke, nor she did —and it remained like that until they arrived. She didn’t think much at that time, but now that she was looking at him, it felt like there was something had happened that upset him.
"What’s wrong?" she asked again, reaching up to cup his cheeks, her gaze gentle and reassuring as if telling him to believe her.
Aiden’s expression only turned vulnerable. He didn’t speak, but his gaze seemed to be conveying volumes.
"Husband, —"
"I am sorry, Moon."
"Huh?" Arwen blinked, not understanding. "Sorry? For what? What are you saying, Aiden?" And it was then she saw the blame flicker in his eyes —a regret.
"I said something that made you upset," he said, and her brows knitted in a frown, looking confused. "I can’t take back what I said, nor can I make you forget it. But can we not just stay and live in the present, without caring about the past and future? Without caring about the hypothetical theories."
And it was then, she caught what he was referring about.
She thought he didn’t care, but he was actually blaming himself for it.
Her heart warmed immediately. When he had said that back over the call, she had felt wronged. But when seeing him like this, it felt like she was wronged. More than her. Worse than her.
Why did he blame himself? Did he not just say what he truly meant?
She had her suspicions about it ... more than ever.
But for now, that was not important.
Staring at him, she adjusted her hand on his cheek, moving it at an angle so that their gazes met. "Look at me," she said, her voice tender. "I might be upset, but believe me, it wasn’t you who made me upset. Something did, but not you. So, don’t blame yourself."
She didn’t lie. Although she had gotten upset after he said that he would let go, she wasn’t upset with him. She was mad at herself that she couldn’t secure her relationship enough to make him unable to let go of her, regardless of the situation.
"As for staying and living with you in the present," her lips curled up subtly, "Husband, trust me, I can’t wish to be anywhere else but beside you —be it for past, present or even the future that I have yet to see."
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