Camp Closeted novel Chapter 51

Romeo and I just stared at each other as he was probably carefully processing my question. I too was processing it because holy shit it sounded really desperate.

"I-I'm sorry, that sounded really weird." I blinked my eyes a couple of times as he remained quiet. "I didn't mean it to sound like I was asking to kiss you, it was just a question."

"Yea, well I do." He blurted out, quickly making me quiet.

"What?" I awkwardly murmured.

"I want to try it." He casually replied as blood rapidly flowed through my body, especially my cheeks as I couldn't believe what I was hearing.

"Y-you do?" I breathed out.

"I mean, we might as well." He shrugged, his face fully turned towards me now. "You've kissed other guys before right?"

"Y-yea." I let out anxiously, not sure if that was a good thing or not. "I guess."

"Okay then, just kiss me like how you would kiss them." Romeo licked over his pink lips as I felt myself stop breathing. "Kiss me." His deep voice commanded quietly.

"Are you serious?" I swallowed, feeling my head unconsciously tilt at him as looking at him made me appreciate how gorgeously handsome he is and it made me feel numb.

All of a sudden, Romeo just smiled. "Ew no, you're gross, obviously not. I'm pretty sure I would rather kiss a dog." I then just breathed deeply as I watched him begin to start the car engine.

His response slightly stung me as a wave of adrenaline quickly ran through my veins. Fuck this asshole. Whether he likes it or not, he needs confirmation.

"Romeo." I tiredly blurted out his name, catching his attention back, making him stop himself from starting the car.

The second his face turned back towards me was the second my face met his, my cold lips crashing against his warm ones.

I didn't get to taste him since I knew this kiss wasn't gonna last long but his lips were incredibly soft, our teeth subtly hitting against each other.

I was now kissing Romeo.

It wasn't at all a comfortable kiss, but it was still a kiss. A kiss that I surprisingly wanted to make the first move in as a huge fuck you to what he just said.

Feeling his shocked aura suddenly radiate around me made me feel so happy in the most electrifying way possible.

I quickly broke away from him as I sat back against my seat, his flushed face completely shocked from what just happened.

Before letting him process it and making him punch me or something, I immediately swung open the car door and threw myself out back to the rain.

The second I aggressively closed the car door, butterflies rapidly roamed around me. I just kissed Romeo! Whether he liked it or not, it doesn't even matter!

Holy shit!

Surprisingly enough, I was gladly walking under the rain now, even throwing my head up to make my face meet more incoming rain drops.

I honestly didn't care if Romeo now hates me for doing what I just did. It's not like I'm ever passing by Cabin B and the library again anyway. I was just so shocked at myself since that was the first move I've ever made on someone.

I'm just so used to being the one returning the kiss that I completely missed out on the thrill on being the one to kiss first.

Oh god, he probably hated it so much that knowing that is only making me love it more. I just fucking kissed Romeo all on my own and had enough time to escape and not get murdered!

I noticed that I was widely grinning to myself now as the sound of running began to emit behind me.

Fuck..

Oh well, I'm not even gonna try and run because I know I won't be able to outrun his fury. I just closed my eyes as I felt the rain soak my body again, the sound of running quickly getting closer as I felt like a murderer was coming after me.

"Where the fuck do you think you're going?" Romeo exclaimed behind me, his arm snapping my body to face him as I awaited my death.

All of a sudden, time completely stopped as I couldn't do anything now. It was already too late. I was frozen as Romeo's arms tightly held onto me.

"G-get away from me!" I quickly winced as I forcefully pushed him away. "Fuck you!"

Romeo forcefully pushed me back. "Fuck you too!" His voice was now raspy.

"Fuck you more!" I childishly exclaimed, smacking his face away the second he tried to get any closer towards me.

Romeo's eyes widened at me the second his cheek began to redden from my hand. "You bitch!" He screamed, rapidly tackling me down the cold wet ground, our bodies causing a large splash. "How could you just kiss me like that and leave without saying anything!"

I let out noises out of discomfort as I tried to get him off of me, one of his hands quickly meeting against my throat.

All of a sudden, we just stared at each other, both of us breathing heavily as Romeo's body was now completely on me. "S-stop!" My voice raised out as his weight continued to hold me down to the ground.

Romeo's cheeks were reddened as tears began to stream down his cheeks. I know why he's mad. I know exactly why he's so mad. Romeo is only just beginning to process that it's okay to be himself and is taking it slow. I can tell he's taking it slow because he took back in wanting to kiss me and hid back behind his usually rude, careless, facade.

Me not caring about this and just kissing him completely stripped away his ability to take his self acceptance slow. Being kissed by another guy was like a rejection to his slow self acceptance and was more like a forceful wake up call to just accept yourself now.

I know this. I know this feeling. I know this too well because it's happened to me. That was exactly what Brandon did to me and now I'm here doing it to whole another person.

Honestly, I didn't know how to feel about it.

I blinked a couple of times as I felt his slippery grip on me tighten. "You're mad because you liked it and I just left without caring, right?" I asked loudly, my vision slightly blurred from the rain.

Romeo continued to cry as he roughly sniffed, the rain only pouring out harder now. "Why did you do that to me!" He let out angrily, his face completely red as his grip around my throat tightened.

"To make you stop being so in denial!" I screamed out, giving up on struggling as I just fully laid back onto the ground now.

He all of sudden got up off of me with a flustered facial expression as his eyes didn't leave mine, his breathing loudly audible.

The second I weakly got back up, Romeo's face just softened at me, both of us intently watching each other with burning emotions. "Fuck you." He let out with a tone of exhaustion. "I'm not in denial."

The second I stood up again, I just couldn't help but smile at him as if nicotine rushed through me. My euphoric smile visibly caught him off guard as we just continued to stand up with slightly crooked posture. "You so are." I sighed.

"No I'm not!" He loudly screamed, his fists tightly clenching at me.

"Prove it." I challenged, gazing intently at him.

With rapid pace, his strong muscular arms forcefully wrapped around me, making our soaked waists crash against each other and our mouths desperately meet once again. But this time, better.

Processing our kiss quickly made me pull his defined jaw closer into me, making our kiss become deeper and a lot more impactful.

My brain started to melt as he tasted like warm chocolate, rain, and pure satisfaction..

Our kiss gradually grew more aggressive as our hands were almost gnawing against each other's cold skin, only to make it rub closer.

Even through the cold rain, Romeo still managed to completely heat up my body, my heart feeling like it was about to burst from the amount of emotions I was feeling all at once.

Every time Romeo's lips would dance against mine it was like everything he held in or tried to change was now being poured into me, letting it all go and freeing it all.

No more worrying about acting straight, no more worrying about what his hateful dad thinks, no more worrying about changing, no more worrying about bullshit.

He was kissing me like a liberated person.

Romeo was kissing me, as himself.

After what felt like an infinity of our lips together, we finally broke away from each other with increased breathing and a lot more heated skin.

"I'm down to go too." I warmly simpered.

"Fuck yea!" Jesse cheered, gesturing Keanu to walk to the showers. "Alright then, we're gonna go take a shower and then go." He smiled brightly.

Once we were left by ourselves, Benny and I just quickly looked at each other. "Holy shit." Benny breathed out.

"Holy shit indeed." I sat next to him.

"So do you think Keanu actually likes me?" Benny quietly asked.

"He was blushing so hard, it's pretty obvious he does." I warmly smiled, making Benny dramatically sigh as if he was about to pass out. "You guys are gonna have your first date! Aren't you excited?"

"I am, but I'm not. I'm not ready to be in a relationship but I am, you know what I mean?" Benny whined as I immediately nodded to agree, staying quiet. "So before you forget to tell me, what made you so happy today?"

I took a deep breath. "I got courage out of nowhere and did something I never thought I'd do." My cheeks began to burn as my finger gently brushed against my lips. "That boy Romeo and I, we kissed." I anxiously let out.

Benny stared at me with narrowed eyes, his neck snapping back. "Hoe what?"

I just breathed once again. "He wasn't sure if he was really gay or not so I just pushed him a little bit, and kissed him. He was frustrated at first, but only because he liked it. Next thing you know, we were kissing again. At this point, he can't even deny that he's gay anymore."

"Oh you a hoe!" Benny snorted as a hand slightly hovered over his mouth.

"I wouldn't exactly think I am because it's not like I was being easy. All I wanted to do was help him out." I explained, his attention being tightly held by me. "Whether or not that was the wrong thing to do, it definitely helped him."

"So hold up." Benny shook his head blinking, fixing his posture on his bed. "I'm so confused. Did that kiss with Romeo mean anything?"

"Yea." I nodded. "It meant a lot of things. But I honestly don't think Romeo likes me in a way I like him. I think he just kissed me back as a way to help him realize that's it's okay to be himself."

Benny just sighed. "Look Micah, it sounds like your ass is honestly just really thirsty." My mouth slightly dropped. "I feel like you're that type of person to hide how much you actually like being a hoe."

I blinked as I didn't know how to take what Benny just said. "What do you mean? I didn't kiss him to be a hoe, I kissed him to just somewhat help him realize whether or not he's gay."

Benny quickly spoke again. "Look, what I mean is even though you kissed him with the intentions of trying to be helpful, you still kissed him because you wanted to." He shrugged, noticing my troubled facial expression. "Micah let's not be dumb. You're introverted self is slowly becoming an extrovert and that's fine. What you won't do though is deny the fact that if Romeo, Tristan, and Jesse all came up to you right now, wanting to make out, you wouldn't say no."

My face immediately froze up as I came up to another realization. "Are you saying I'm a fuck boy?" I anxiously laughed as Benny began to laugh.

"I-uh, a temporary one." Benny began to laugh louder. "You're just going around testing the waters and seeing which type of guys you're into and that's fine. Just be more real about it." He casually shrugged.

"Oh well, I don't even think I have that much time to test anymore waters because I like Jesse. I can't deny it anymore because I'd only be lying to myself." I bit my lip. "After this date, he'll probably be my first ever boyfriend and I'm happy with that." I warmly smiled.

"Micah." Benny just deeply breathed. "Do you like Tristan?"

My jaws clenched before answering. "I mean, yea, a little bit."

"How about Romeo?" He quickly asked again.

As much as I wanted to say a long response, I just didn't. "Yea."

"Do you wanna be with them as much as you wanna be with Jesse?" He kept questioning.

"If I have time t-to get to know them as much as I know Jesse, then yea, probably." I licked over my lips.

"Then time will tell Micah. Time will tell." Benny just nodded, the sound of thunder emitting itself from a distance. "The galaxy has a weird way of telling us shit. All you can do now is just wait."

All of a sudden, the voice of a man quickly entered the cabin. He was dressed in full uniform and had on a name tag. "Hey boys! Just wanna let you guys know we'll be closing off all the gates around the camp because of the hard rain and thunder tonight! The west gate which is nearby you boys got blocked off by a huge tree. It was probably struck down by lightning and fell. We'll make sure to take care of it as soon as possible!" He saluted. "Make sure not to go anywhere outside the camping grounds boys! Have a safe night!" He then walked away, his large boots slightly echoing.

"There you go." Benny nodded.