Chasing His Kickass Luna Back novel Chapter 44

Abby

The door to my office clicks shut, its noise echoing in the room, serving as a final punctuation to Karl’s exit.

I watch him go, and the residue of our past, thick with pain and longing, clings to me, making it hard to breathe.

A sigh escapes me as I lean back into my chair, the cool leather pressing against my back, providing a temporary relief.

The whiff of the past and our complicated relationship is still strong in the air. Passing a hand over my face, I let the sensation of touch distract me momentarily. How I wish things could be different, simpler.

But my heart is still entangled with Adam’s, and the thought of ending it leaves me adrift in a sea of uncertainty. I haven’t made my decision yet; I love Adam. He’s been my rock for a long time now. We have plenty in common, and he’s sweet and caring…

But he just doesn’t seem to have the same passion for me as I would hope he would. He’s sweet, yes, but I don’t feel like a priority in his life.

I want him to want me; I want him to get angry and jealous over Karl, I want him to have sex with me, I want him to show up when he says he will because he can’t get enough of me. And yet here I am, a ring on my finger, and he can hardly make time for me. It makes me feel worthless.

Then there’s Karl. Sweet Karl. He’s changed so much recently. He’s become kinder, more understanding. He still has his rough edges, his undeniable Alpha attitude, but that’s what I like about him.

But he divorced me. His words may be dripping with sweetness now, but nothing can erase that fact.

My phone vibrates on my desk, its sudden intrusion breaking through my thoughts. The screen displays Leah’s name. Picking it up, I answer, “Hey.”

“Abby, Chloe told me about what happened. Not just with Adam, but... your burn. Are you okay?”

I glance down at my arm, the scarlet mark still raw and angry. “I’m fine now. Got the burn taken care of,” I reply, attempting to sound more upbeat than I feel.

“And Adam?” Leah’s voice is laced with concern, but there’s also an underlying tone that makes me hesitate.

I fall silent. How do you explain something you don’t fully understand yourself?

Leah sighs on the other end, as though reading my thoughts. “Listen, Abby. Whatever happens between you and Adam, know that I’m behind you. But...” she pauses for a moment. “Just remember not to run back to Karl.”

A flash of irritation courses through me. Why does everyone assume I’d go running back to him? Is that all they think of me?

“Leah,” I snap before I can stop myself, “everyone seems to believe I’ll just fall back into Karl’s arms. There’s nothing between us. And besides, if I do decide to end things with Adam, I want to be single for a while. I don’t need to jump from one relationship to another.”

Leah’s voice is soft when she responds, a hint of hurt evident. “Okay, Abby. I was just looking out for you. You know how we all feel about him.”

Guilt washes over me. I didn’t mean to snap. “I’m sorry, Leah,” I say, exhaustion from the night weighing on me. “It’s just... it’s been a lot.”

Leah chuckles, the warmth returning to her voice. “I know, Abby. It’s okay. Want me to come over?”

A genuine smile tugs at my lips. “How about one of our weekly tea dates? With Chloe too? I’ve missed those.”

“You, me, Chloe, and an avalanche of pastries?” Leah teases. “It’s a date. I’ll set it up.”

Gratitude fills me. “Thanks, Leah. It means a lot.”