Chasing The Rejected Luna's Heart (Clara and Liam) novel Chapter 174

~DELILAH~

I didn't bother turning back when Luca walked into the room. I continued brushing my hair while watching him through the mirror.

“Can we talk?” He questioned as soon as I stood up from the chair.

“Now you want to talk after Clara spoke to you? Look I just put Mia to bed and I just want to rest, okay?” I said to him and tried walking past him when he grabbed my hand and pulled me back.

“Please Delilah, I'm begging you. Let's just talk for a few minutes” He said softly and I couldn't stop the tears that rolled down my cheeks.

“You don't know how long I've been waiting for months just for you to say those words. Do you know how hard it has been for me?” I questioned and he immediately grabbed my face, turning me to face him.

“I’m sorry my love, I'm sorry. I just didn't want to burden you…”

“Burden me with what? We had a child, Luca and you hardly spend time with me or her. If you know your work is more important to you then…”

“Nothing matters more to me in this world than you and Mia. You both mean everything to me” He interrupted and I frowned.

“It doesn't seem like that. As a matter of fact, it hasn't seemed like that for a while now. You don't talk to me like before, you ignore me, you hardly even touch me. Don't you love me anymore?” My voice quivered as I spoke. If he said yes, I didn't know what I was going to do with myself.

Despite how he treated me, I loved Luca so fucking much. So much that even if he said yes, I would still choose to stay beside him. I wasn't sure I could love or want to love someone else.

“I love you more than my life, Delilah. You have no idea how much I love you…”

“I haven't felt this love you claim to have for me for four years now, Luca!” I screamed in his face as hot tears rolled down my cheeks.

“Delilah…”

“Why? I want to know why you've been so distant. Tell me what's going on” I urged as I grabbed onto his hand. The more I looked at him, the more I felt like something was wrong with him. The Luca I had fallen in love with had a glint in his eyes and a warm smile on his face anytime he stared at me and although I could still see the love in his eyes, there was something else in there.

“Talk to me Luca, tell me what's wrong and let me help you” I murmured as I grabbed onto his face and he shook his head.

“You can't help me, I don't think anyone can” He whispered so softly, I barely heard him.

“There are voices in my head, Delilah. Most times I can't make out what they're saying but other times… I can and the things they're telling me to do, the things the voices are trying to make me do, I can't take it” He informed me and my eyes widened as I stared at him.

“What are they telling you to do? Why didn't you tell me earlier? We could have found a solution together Luca” I uttered and he shook his head.

“Don’t you get it? The voices get louder when I'm with you because whenever I'm near you, my mind is relaxed, I'm relaxed and that's the only reason why I've been burying myself in work because that's the only thing that keeps my mind busy. I didn't want to intentionally hurt you, Delilah. I didn't want to make you cry. It's just…”

“Shhh, it's okay. It's going to be okay, we’ll solve it together, hmm? Did you tell Damon and Clara about this?” I questioned and he nodded.