Coffee and Bliss novel Chapter 18

Harris offered the tan man a sneaky smile that he didn't seem to understand. His eyes were looking straight into the tan man’s eyes. He was caught by Tristan’s mesmerizing eyes, the way it portrayed confusion, excitement, and doubtful look. He guessed that Tristan was trying really hard to decipher his moods and action. He couldn't blame the tan man, he was really confusing and did things unconsciously sometimes.

Being with Tristan was really a roller coaster for him. He could do crazy things around him even if it was not his thing. He just wanted to study hard but guess what, he seemed not to now. He was confused by himself too toward his own actions. He was not the same Harris that everyone in their home had known for so long anymore. His life was changed. Tristan and his niece changed him.

“What are you, Tristan?” That was the most stupid question that came out of his mouth before thinking. Guess that he really lost his right mind with Tristan around. And it scared yet fascinated him. 

Tristan’s mouth opened and closed as if he wanted to say something but changed his mind then. He raised his eyebrows, pursuing him to answer. He lightly dug his fingers on the tan man’s waist.

“What question was that? Of course, I’m a human if you can’t see and tell. Damn it, Harris! Be serious right now. We’re facing an issue here. Stop saying nonsense!” Tristan raised his tone abruptly that caused him to jolted a little.

When he regained his composure, he pressed himself more to the tan man’s back. Feeling the heat, he snapped again. “I’m being serious here. If you want to know why I’m not bothered, then answer me first!”

“It has nothi—”

“It has! It has to do with everything in the future. So, what are you? Just answer it.” 

“Is it me being straight or not?” Tristan asked with a flat tone. “Fuck! Is this some kind of guessing game?” He muttered to himself but he still heard it.

“Yes.” One word but full of conviction. 

“I’m straight, okay? And about the article, sorry for that. For what happened last night, I know it’s—nevermind. It was a mistake. I’m–”

Before Tristan could even finish, he cursed loudly to make the tan man stop. He slowly stepped backward, his mind became blank all of a sudden. His heart seemed to shatter into million pieces after hearing his answer. He was straight! He was fucking straight! Yes, of course. And what he did last night was all a mistake. A mistake!

He brushed his hair and laughed like crazy. He bit his lips to avoid himself from crying. Tristan’s answer just broke him into a million pieces. 

“G-Guess I was wrong. Sorry for making the issue more complicated. I’ll fix it then. I need to clear it immediately before it sets another wildfire.”

All his hope faded away in just one snap. He was caught off guard. He was devastated by himself for making his hope up. He should have listened to his mind not his heart. How could the tan man have feelings towards him, right? They were both men. At least, the man was. Because from time passing by, he was not sure of himself anymore. He felt gay with Tristan. Everything around him made him feel gay.