Coffee and Bliss novel Chapter 20

“I’m sorry.”  Two words but he said it with sincerity. Positioning himself between Harris’ legs, he leaned his forehead to him and closed his eyes.

“I don’t know what’s happening to me. All I know is that I need to confess to you something because if I didn’t, I might lose my damn mind.” He tiredly said, as if begging to be understood by the other.

He opened his eyes and Harris' almost lifeless eyes shot right through him.

Harris lifted his hands, barely touching his back. He tapped it gently like assuring him that he would hear whatever he wanted to say.

“Sorry is not enough. Saying sorry then give a reason after is stupid. But hear me out. I’d been a jerk for not understanding my own feelings fast. I thought I was just being touchy and nothing else. I didn’t know…” He stopped when his voice cracked. 

“that it’s the feeling of being in love. I learned about it late—”

“You’re in love?” Harris cut his words.

He leaned backward. He shyly scratched his nape. “Y-Yes. I’m in love with you.” He bit his lips after.

Harris stared at him like he had grown another head. After a long silence, his eyes were filled with tears. He threw his hands around his nape and moved him closer. 

He was confused for a while but Harris' action instead told everything.

Harris slammed his lips to him. He didn't move, he was just touching and feeling the warmth that enveloped quickly on his whole body. 

'I don’t care about anything he wants to say. All that matters is that I know now that Tristan is in love with me. That’s just what I want.'

Harris pulled out, looking at him with a smile that appeared on his gloomy face earlier.

“W-Why did you cry? And kiss—” He asked, wanting Harris to say his reason aloud.

“Pǒm rák kun.”

“What? You love me?” He felt like his heart stopped for a while. When he looked into Harris' eyes, he saw sincerity.

Instead of answering back, Harris pulled him closer again. He bent more for him. Harris' kiss was gentle and made himself just feel his lips against him at first.

Harris' kiss became aggressive that made him gasp and clasped his hands on the pale man's hair, wanting support like it was the only best option to hold on. Harris’ warm mouth was making its way to parted his lips. It sent mixed emotions that he didn’t feel after a long time. The sensation was too much. His lips were shaking as of excitement. Before Harris could dive deeper in his mouth, he was already kissing him back. More than the intensity he was giving to him.

He gasped at his mouth. There was a bizarre sensation tingling on his stomach. Gentle, then a peck, becoming deeper after, licking his lips harder again till he tasted the best feelings he didn’t know that the man was capable of giving him.

“If you want me to stop, just tell me.” He murmured.

He felt Harris smiled in their kiss. 

“I will count one to three okay? If you didn’t tell me to stop till three, you know this will be going to be a long, long day,” He said, trying to give the pale man a chance. He pulled away a bit and gazed at him.

“One…” Harris slightly lifted the crook of his lips.

“Two…” Harris teased him.

“Two and a half…“ Harris leaned forward and licked his upper lip.

“Two and one fourth…” Harris parted his lips and swirled his tongue inside, touching his teeth.

“Two and—”