'Maybe he was serious before, ' thinking Alice when she was dwelling in the past. 'When did our love begin to change? To put it another way, when did Jacob no longer love me?'
She could feel that he wasn't as excited as she thought when he picked her up at the airport, but she chose to keep it to herself.
This was just how people have always been. She could feel their love fading like a flickering candle in the dark, but she just could not accept it. At the back of her mind, she thought that he just might be having some interest in others out of longing, but it wasn't the truth. She had no idea that his love for her was really gone for good.
It could be said that love was a spontaneous feeling that could happen in an instant, but if someone was to change their heart, then it would be close to impossible to reverse that. Alice arched up a bitter smile as she continued to ponder. She rudely confronted Jacob's assistant as soon as she received a call from her.
"Why didn't Jacob call me himself? How many times must I remind you to be clear to him about my words? You stupid piece of crap! If you can't do your job properly, don't waste everyone's time and quit already!"
Her anger exploded, but the woman on the other end of the line just hung up the phone without a word.
Alice held the phone, summoning all her strength to clench her hand into a fist. She was speechless. First she found out that she couldn't feel Jacob's love anymore, and now even his assistant had lost respect for her.
She was almost on the verge of throwing her phone out of anger when she noticed that it received a message from his assistant.
"I have told Mr. Jacob what you said."
The simple words were almost like a bucket of cold water that washed over her. Yet somehow, it was the most devastating set of words she received ever since she got here. She stared into oblivion and her mind wandered somewhere else. She tightly held the phone in her hand that it could break at any moment.
She was forced to live in a foreign place and couldn't go back. Shadows suddenly cast themselves across her face and the voice in her mind became clearer. If she didn't have the chance to have him back, she would destroy him.
She just couldn't let her efforts to survive what she suffered go in vain without Jacob paying the price. 'It's not fair. I was alone for a long time, just so he could be left unbothered with his woman, ' she thought. It was indeed unfair for her. All the things that should have belonged to her slipped right out of her hands.
She dug her fingers deeper into the arm rests of her chair as her anger raged on. She gnashed her teeth, and her eyes resembled that of a hungry predator as they glowed red in the dark.
Sara kept her silence and uncomfortably looked up to the car's front. The scenery outside was beautiful, but she wasn't in the mood for it. It was the same scenery that she had seen multiple times.
But her mood changed with what was happening around her. She always felt the mixture of joy and sorrow. Sara heaved a sigh. She noticed that Jacob was not as gentle as before.
She was quite sure about that because he would get very concerned about her even with just a single sneeze. But today, he didn't bother talking to her.
His indifference made Sara feel anxious in return. If it weren't for something extremely important that he had to prioritize it above everything else, he wouldn't act like this.
He caught a glimpse of her from the corner of his eyes. He knew he had gone too far today. But when he thought of the consequences, he felt that it was necessary to remain silent.
Jacob had thought of many excuses he could come up with, including the right approach to engage a conversation, but when he thought that he had to tell her the truth sooner or later, he felt a slight ache lingering in his heart.
The discomfort he felt from all that overthinking was unbearable. He wanted to tell Sara everything and get it over with, but he just didn't have the strength to even open his mouth. Even he himself was fed up with his indecisiveness, and the atmosphere inside the car was almost suffocating for him.
His thoughts kept spinning on and on, and he couldn't do anything but stay silent through it all. Jacob's face turned grim.
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