Sara moved out of her sitting position and lashed out at him. "What? Did I do something wrong to you?"
Jacob was quite determined to grab the pillow from her arms, but she quickly swept his hands away.
He was embarrassed with how that attempt ended up, and said, "Sara, I have something to tell you. But promise me you won't be angry. I need you to promise me that first."
She felt it was something serious upon hearing him beg like that. 'What did he mean by that, some kind of imparity clause? Now I have to be the one to promise something first?' she thought. Her expression changed into a strangely aggrieved demeanor.
"Whatever you say. I can't promise you anything if I don't know what you're going to say in the first place. You know what, I don't care. But, Jacob, what's the matter with you today? Tell me."
She clenched her fists, and some hints of anger crept up in her. But her curiosity overlapped above all the faculties of her human emotion. It could be observed clearly that even Jacob was afraid and unsure of what he was about to say.
However, he knew that it would take a very specific thing to make someone like Sara angry. Either way, she could not figure out what he was referring to. The uncertainty clouded all her suspicions and left her in the dark. She started to feel infuriated by that notion.
There was something out there that she should know about, but it was annoying for her to think that it was now completely out of her control. Jacob stared at her for a good while with his usual empty eyes. It almost looked as if he was lost in her eyes.
"Sara, something happened. It's about Alice," he finally uttered. He lost his confidence almost immediately after observing her take a rather tough stance. He was really different now—so different that his most beloved woman had become his weakness.
Back then, he could just simply ignore her feelings and do whatever he wanted to do. But he found himself head over heels with this woman that he'd be willing to protect her from anything that might hurt her.
Perhaps this was the difference between love and being an empty shell of a man. He didn't have time to heave a sigh, and he just wanted to settle this matter as soon as he could. But it seemed too difficult even for him.
"What's the matter?" Sara felt that it seemed to be something exploding in her mind all at once. The ringing of metaphorical tinnitus was still lingering in her ears. She slowly looked up, and keenly studied his face.
He felt an ache in his heart as he saw the wary look on Sara's face. He hadn't seen such an expression from her for such a long time. At the same time, a hint of guilt rose into his heart. He was reluctant to tell her what exactly happened because he loved her too much to share that much burden to her. He couldn't bear risking breaking her heart again.
"Today, Alice gave me a call to tell me that she's pregnant." He looked straight at her with a pair of determined eyes. He waited for her reaction.
She stood up and angrily threw the pillow she was tightly holding in her hand. She turned to leave without a word. 'How could I miss something big of a news like that?' she thought. If anything, she was angrier at herself. This meant that the photos that Alice had sent her before were true all along; which meant that Jacob not only cheated on her, but lied on her face for a long time.
'This was all a lie!' she thought out loud. She felt that her head would explode in anger at any given moment.
'How could he do something like this over and over again, just to get away with it every single time?!' At this point, if anyone would tell her that her life had always been a joke, she would believe them. She was about reaching her threshold in dealing with his mess.
He stood up as well and ran after her and hugged her from behind. She lashed out and tried to break free from his grasp, but to no avail.
He didn't dare to let her go.
"Listen to me, Sara. Don't act on impulse. I was afraid that you would get angry, so I didn't bother telling you about it. But please calm down."
He felt that his initial idea that he could manage to persuade her to calm down seemed to have been proven impossible now.
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