Hatred With Benefits novel Chapter 84

EMERSON.

"Are you threatening me, Carson?" My head spins at those words from her and she smirks, "Does it feel like a threat, Ford? I'm just letting you know what you would be missing—"

With one long stride, I close the small gap between us, wrapping a hand around her throat and silencing the rest of her words. "You dare mention fucking other men in front of me?"

"Am I not allowed to?" She raises a brow and I move a hand between us, slipping it under her skirt to where her wetness awaits me, and goddamn, she's soaked.

"Oh, " she utters lowly as I close my palm over it and I say, "This is mine. Did you get that, Eva? You'll not fuck nor will you mention fucking another man, because this fucking belongs to me. "

She raises her head high. "Then prove it. "

"What?" I mutter and she presses her lips to my temple. I close my eyes to the feel of her lips on that skin again, only for Eva to take it away and say, "Prove it, Ford. Prove that it's yours. "

When I remain still, she continues, "Unless you're a coward, who only knows how to—" I say fuck it all at that. I don't care if I'm such a fool for it, or if I'm willingly playing her game; I just lose it and claim her mouth.

Her hands immediately find their stay around my neck and she jumps on me as she invades my mouth with the same burn and force. We kiss like we've been starved for years; tongue on tongue, sucking, biting and pulling. She kisses me like it's the only thing she cares about at the moment and I devour her mouth like it's the only thing keeping me alive. And we take each other's lips like it's the one thing we can finally have after such a long time.

I keep my hands on the legs wrapped around my waist as I lead us in the direction of the room and Eva's hands work on my shirt and my pants. Moved from sliding under my shirt to feel my skin, to caressing the front of my pants to feel the strain of my hardened cock— one that she managed to cause within seconds.

We find our way inside the room like we always do and Eva drops to her feet, as she struggles to get rid of my clothes while I do the same to hers.

When we finally strip each other naked, we break the kiss to take a breathe, and the loud pants of our breaths surround us as we stare into each other's eyes and there's only a beat of a second before we're back to taking what we crave, our hands moving through every skin, and I know then that I'd die to have more hands just to feel her skin on my fingertips at a time. Her hands are on my chest, my shoulders, my head, rubbing my cock then leaving it to wrap around my arms while mine moves to her chest, twirling the hardened buds just to hear her tiny scream in my mouth, cupping her face, finding her wetness and caressing her ass.

Amidst the beautiful chaos, we lose our stand and Eva trips over the edge of the bed with me falling right over her.

I take a second to adjust before I press my lips to the side of her neck, earning moans from her and she moves her hand to my back, her nails crawling down the skin as I filter kisses across her chest. I get to where her piercing is and I take the metal in my mouth, sucking on her belly button along with it.

"Oh, fuck. Em. " The shortened form of my name coming from her sends a spark through my body and I press my lips to the tattoo by her hip, letting it stay there for a while before I move over her again.

"Why did you stop?" Eva groans beneath me with eyes that tells me she needs me to take what she's offering and I say, "This feels wrong, Eva. You're drunk and it feels like I'm taking advantage of that. "

"You're not, " she hisses, her hands moving to my waist till my cock is pressing against her throbbing pussy, the tip stroking her wet entrance, and a muffled hum in the throat leaves my mouth with how good alone that feels. "I've told you I want this. "

"In the wrong state of mind. Your decision is influenced by the alcohol you consumed. I don't want our first time back together to be like this. " I tell her, moving my hands further from the sides of her head to keep my mind clear and she drops her hands from my waist, an annoyed expression covering her face. "So you're not going to fuck me?"

"I'm trying not to make a mistake that you'll blame me for in the morning, Eva. " I say and she rolls her eyes, "It's just a damn fuck, Emerson. What's so hard about sticking your cock inside me? I remember you didn't have a problem with that before. "

"I didn't. " I agree. "Because I didn't have to do it when you were drunk, and I won't have to do it like this soon again. "

"We're not together. " She reminds me of that one hurtful fact, and I smile at her as I press a hand to her cheek, "We are. You're only taking a breath. You love me; you can't stay away from me for long. "

"I don't love you. " She says with a frown and I make a sound of disapproval along with a shake of my head before I part my lips, "Explains why your heart is beating this fast. And I see love in your eyes. "

She looks away from me, hiding her face and I chuckle as she mumbles, "You're both blind and deaf. "

"I love you. " I tell her instead, pushing forward to press my lips over her forehead. "I love you so fucking much. "

"You really won't fuck me?" She asks when I withdraw, and my gaze drops to her lips. I wet my lips before I push my face closer to hers, and tease her lips with my tongue. When I pull back to look into her eyes, they are eager and dimming in anticipation, and I'm unable to hold myself back as I capture her lips in mine. Her hands are quick to move around my waist again, and that small feel of her is enough to take a grunt from me as I part her lips with my tongue before I leave it in her mouth, letting her suck on it.

I bite on her bottom lip before I move my head to the side and whisper to her ear, "I'll make you cum another way. How about that?"

"I want you, Emerson. " That's the response she gives me and my cock twitches between her thighs in response to those satisfying yet seducing words coming from her.

"I know. And I want you just as much. " I assure her before I move off her body. I grab both of her legs and throw them to either side of my shoulder before I lower my body, till my face is directly in front of her pussy.

"Oh, damn—" Eva moans above me as I blow air to her wetness, pressing my hands to her inner thighs and almost touching her core.

"I've missed seeing this so much. " I say as I swipe my tongue from her bud to her entrance and her entire body shudders in response to my tease. "I've missed having a taste of this. " Her tiny whimpers and pleas for more ring above my head as I press my lips onto her sweet lips, and suck enough of her wetness to leave the lingering taste on my mouth.

I raise my head to look at her, and she's staring down at me with hooded eyes.

"You taste exactly as I remember. " I whisper and she drops her hands to my head, her fingers tangling with my curls. "Emerson. "

"Do you want me to suck more?" She nods instantly, "Yes. Please. I want you to. "

I smile before I drop my head again, and I separate her folds with my fingers, giving me a clear view of the pink flesh that rests beneath then I give her my tongue.

"Yes. Just like that. God, that feels so good. " She cries, gripping tight onto the end of my locks, and I thrust my tongue inside, my chest swelling at the sounds and whimpers of my name that falls from her mouth each time I pull my tongue out, only to push back inside. She tastes like fucking heavens, like a reward I get to have after living through hell numerous times and I take everything that I've offered, burying my face into her pussy with my hands moving from her inner thighs to her ass, squeezing the flesh as I slowly lift her body a bit from the bed.

I don't stop sucking, stroking, teasing, taking and giving until Eva's legs start to shake on my shoulders and her whole body goes into a fit of shivers, her relief washing over her in the cruellest way before her body falls in a sigh and I move my face from her thighs.

Her legs drop from my shoulders and her hands from my hair as I slide over her body, bringing my face close to hers.

She breaths heavily, making tiny sounds of bliss at the back of her throat and I let out a word, "Mine. "

"Emerson. " She calls my name in that tone that just turns me into such a fool in her hold and I crush my lips against hers, sharing with her the heaven that we've both managed to get tonight after such a long time.

When I pull back, she says no words and I smile at her as I fall beside her.

"I love you, baby. " I tell her as I bring her head to my chest and wrap an arm around her. My heart drops when I'm given her silence as a response, but the fact that she's here makes me move my other arm around her. It doesn't matter if she doesn't say it back now. I don't expect her to say them instantly; I'm just fucking glad that I have her like this, naked in each other's arms and with her warmth surrounding me as we lie to sleep with our heartbeats matching the other, for the very first time in what feels like forever.

This is what it feels like with her. Excitement and calmness. A moment that I wish she would never have to take from us.

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"Eva. " I groan, spreading my hand to the side to feel her, only to be met with a vacancy.

"Eva. " I call again, and I open my eyes to the white ceiling before I drop my head to the side with no Eva beside me.

I move to sit on the bed, and my eyes move in front of me, but she's nowhere. Her clothes are gone too.

She left. Eva left.