Winnie knew that now she needed company the most and someone to love her. She hoped that this person was Brian, but she needed sincere care, not company without any feelings.
"Go back. The nurse can take care of me."
Winnie said again.
"You are sick, how can I eat? I will eat with you."
Brian knew that he was imperceptibly giving Winnie pressure and that leaving now was good to forget each other.
But he really was worried about Winnie, and did not want her to face the pain alone.
"I..."
Winnie continued to drive Brian away, but at this moment the pain hit again. She clenched her teeth and swallowed back her words.
"It hurts again, doesn't it?
Brian took Winnie's hand, and from the strength of Winnie's hand, he knew that she was in great pain.
Brian put his other hand on Winnie's right abdomen and began to rub it.
"You will be fine."
Brian's voice was so low and soft that he couldn't hide his worry.
If he could, he would bear the torture Winnie suffered.
Winnie did endure.
The feeling was indescribable. She felt like she was going to die. But she did not want to be seen by Brian.
His gentle words instantly made Winnie's heart hurt. It felt like that he was genuinely concerned about her, yet she told herself that she could not be deceived and could not believe a word he said.
"I'm fine. I can bear it."
Winnie told Brian and encouraged herself.
No one cared about her. No matter what happened, even if she immediately closed her eyes and left the world, she would suffer it alone.
At the moment, Brian was beside her, but she thought she was lonely and helpless.
"Winwin, if it hurts, cry out, and it will relieve."
Brian was so worried and could not see that Winnie endured it.
"Cry..."
Winnie wanted to say she would not cry, but as she uttered a word, she couldn't help crying out.
Brian's words had magic, why did it make her tears pour down, why did it make her strong heart collapse?
Last moment, she told herself to be strong, but in this moment she broke down. ‘Winnie, you are so weak.’
Brian wanted Winnie to cry and felt she would be better, but as the moment she cried out, he felt his heart hurtful, but he did not know what to do.
He could only bend over and hold Winnie in his arms.
"It's all right. You will be fine in a minute."
Brian could only gently appease her.
Winnie did not speak but had been in tears, but she heard clearly Brian's comfort.
At this moment, she was not touched, but hated Brian even more, hated him for always swaying her heart.
Winnie cried for a while, and the pain finally passed.
She first pulled her hand out of Brian's and then pushed him away.
"It's all right, it doesn't hurt now."
"You sweat a lot. I'll give you some water."
Looking at Winnie's improved face, Brian felt relieved.
"I'm not thirsty. Give me your phone. Mine is at Daenerys’."
Winnie got her sense back after the pain. There was something she must arrange.
Brian gave the phone to Winnie.
Winnie took the phone and called Daenerys.
"Daenerys, please call my aunt and tell her I'll stay at your home tonight. Don't tell my aunts about my illness. Or they'll get worried.”
"Well, I'll call her now. Are you getting better?"
Daenerys’ voice was urgent but soft.
"Much better. Don't worry."
Winnie hung up the phone, gave the mobile phone back to Brian, but inadvertently she saw Brian's lock screen was a picture of her and her children.
She wanted to ask Brian to replace it with one that was of only children. But she didn't and pretended she did not see that.
"You go back, too. I'm all right. I'm sorry to always trouble you."
Winnie said feebly.
"Leave me alone. Just pretend I am not here. I'm not going back."
For Winnie's insistence, as well as her sorry, Brian did not have the patience to listen to. They should not be so polite to each other. Even if they were ordinary friends, he would not leave a patient alone.
Winnie could not convince Brian, so she could only keep silent.
Winnie fell asleep after a short time, perhaps because she was tired, or because of the medicine.
However, Winnie still frowned from time to time in her sleep. Maybe the pain was always with her, but it was less severe than before.
Brian had been there with Winnie, sitting beside the bed, holding her hand.
He could not leave this woman, but he could stay with her.
He felt guilty for her, but he could not compensate her.
He could not come forward to help when she needed favor, he could not show too much care when she was ill, and finally he turned her into the world's most pitiful woman.
Winnie woke up by pain. Although not as severe as the initial pain, it always tortured her intermittently.
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