I Will Escape novel Chapter 86

Tonya's POV

I am so fucking outraged. I am trying so hard to control myself but its getting harder and harder. No one knows all the things that I had to go through. Just with knowing that he is here makes me sick. I know that Sabrina wants me to open up to her. I don't like talking about it. Mark is a fucking monster that deserves to be tortured. I want him tortured to death for as long as we possibly can. People just don't understand the hate you can carry for someone. When there is someone who has only ever caused you pain, you start to feel an intense hatred. My own mate isn't even on my side to torture my abuser. Damien has no idea all the things I had to endure. I was just trying to survive. I want to tell him but I'm afraid that he will look at me differently. I feel so dirty thinking of all the things that Mark forced me to do to him. I can’t believe I allowed him to do those things to me for so long.

I want to forget about all of it. It will never go away it will always exist. Its impossible trying to forget it until something else reminds you of the awful things that have happened. I want to make him hurt in every way that he made me hurt. He has tortured so many women that didn't deserve the things that he did to them. I guess I should be happy that I survived him. What about the women that did not survive? Those women that he killed and tortured just like me. He needs to pay for all of it. I will be the one that makes him suffer for what he has done.

As I get up, I hear talking. I go out to the living room, and I see Dominic and Sabrina they look so happy together. I know that Sabrina hides most of her hurt and her fear. She tries to be tough for all of us. I know that her weakness is the Alpha and she is terrified of him. She might have escaped him, but he still haunts her every night. I can hear her screams. I know she desperately wants to find our father but I am not so sure about it. I have powers in me, Sabrina also has them inside her. We have no idea all the powers we have. She thinks our father is the only person that can help us bring them out. She seeks just as much revenge for the Alpha that I seek for the Beta. That’s what we have in common right now. I think that it is about time that I start my revenge on Mark, and show him what pain truly is.

“You guys can go to bed now. I'm not tired. I will stay up to watch his pathetic ass.”

“Tonya I can stay up with you, I don't mind at all we can have girl time.”

“Sabrina I'm not a child. I will be fine, I promise. If there are any issues, I will come get you.”

“Come Sabrina. Let’s go get so rest. Tonya will be fine she is a big girl. She can take care of herself.”

As I watched them walk back down the hall to go to bed, I am relieved. Sabrina always tries to help. I wish she would just leave me be. She acts like the boss and everyone just follows her without question. I can't believe her growl knocked him out like this. I want him to be awake, so he can feel all the pain he’s about to receive. I don't question that he will be able to tolerate a lot. He will break we all do eventually, it just takes time. He will break just like I did from his torture. I have a silver knife that Damien gave to me to protect myself with. Silver is lethal and takes longer to heal for wolves. I wonder if I stab him if he will awake from his slumber.

My wolf comes out, “Tonya I want my mate you can't stay mad at him, he just doesn't understand. The Betas wolf is making me uneasy.”

“Diamond he betrayed me. He doesn’t even want to stand by me as I get my revenge on my abuser.”

“Tonya he just doesn't understand what all you have been through with the Beta you need to tell him.”

“Diamond he should be by my side even if I'm about to make a mistake. He shouldn't leave me alone especially now.”

“Tonya give him a chance to come around talk to him and explain to him how evil this man is.”

“Diamond he knew how evil he is, yet, he left me alone. I'm done with this conversation.”

I hear footsteps. I figure its probably Sabrina coming to check on me. I get up to walk out to the kitchen, its Damien getting a glass of water. I just turn around not speaking to him,and go back to the living room.

“Wait Tonya! I'm sorry for not understanding what you are going through.”

“You didn't even ask Damien you just let me be alone.

“Tonya I'm sorry. I wish I would have stayed. I needed time to process what’s happening Tonya.”

“What do you think? We should have just let him free for him to run back to his Alpha. Beta could lead him right to us.”