CHAPTER 19
JESS
Luke pulled away, leaving me gasping for air and confused. The park’s darkness seemed to swallow me whole, and I felt like I was drowning in its silence.
“Why… why did you kiss me?” I demanded, my voice shaking with emotion. The sound of my own words echoed through the stillness,
Luke’s expression was impassive, his eyes calm and distant. “You need to go home and talk to your brother,” he said bluntly, his tone lacking the warmth I just felt in our kiss.
I felt a surge of anger and frustration well up inside me. “What’s wrong with you? You kissed me! Are you that messed up that you can’t see what you are doing? Hot then cold then hot and fucking frigid again.” I shouted, my voice echoing through the park. “Are you broken inside? That you just don’t care?”
Luke’s gaze didn’t waver, but his jaw clenched, his eyes narrowing slightly. He didn’t move or flinch, but I could sense the tension radiating from him.
I took a step closer, my heart pounding in my chest. “You’re not even going to try to explain yourself?” I accused, my voice rising to a shout.
Luke’s expression didn’t change, but his voice was low, even when he spoke. “There is nothing to explain Jessica. You and
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me will never happen. It’s time you put those little girl fantasies to bed. I kissed you because you were desperate for an ounce of fucking attention. I felt sorry for you!”
The words cut through me like a knife. I realized that Luke was right. It was a little girl’s fantasy. The boy I had a crush on–hell, the boy I loved–was not standing in front of me right now. He was long gone.
I turned away from him, feeling defeated and ashamed. It was still dark outside, and I was thankful for it. I wanted to hide in it, so I ran from Luke again.
I was almost at my house when I stopped, dropping my hand on my knees to breathe. I felt Luke standing behind me. His warmth seeped into my skin. Slowly, I straightened myself. I looked up at my house. I should have gone in, left him on the sidewalk, and faced my brother, but my body didn’t respond.
I felt Luke pull me to his chest, my back flush with his body. But my body seemed rooted to the spot, refusing to move as Luke’s warmth seeped into my skin like a gentle breeze on a summer day. His head dipped to the nape of my neck, and I felt his lips graze my skin like silk on stone.
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