Life After the Storm novel Chapter 82

My wolf is pulling to her mate, she wants to see him. I am nervous I didn't let him to die afraid of what he may think. I hide him, so he wouldn't be found but was it enough. Damn it, it's not like I left him out in the open and put a sign on him to come get me. I feel so bad for what I did, but I had no other choice at the time.

Star is yelling inside my head, “please take me to my mate, he's alive, I want to be with him.”

I don't know what to do, I also felt the connection with Ivan but all the things that he has done to me. I don't know what I feel when I look at him, I know I felt fear before, but its seems different now. I don't feel any kind of genuine love for him but could I. Star is attempting to take over my body, but I am stronger, I don't allow her to.

Ivan is becoming closer, his scent is sending arousal through my body, I purr to the delight. Unsure what to make it out as. This is the man who has terrified me And put me through so much misery, but yet, My body craves him more than anything.

I watch as he removes his jacket exposing his neck showing the mark that I have given him. The crowd begins to rattle, surprised, not knowing Ivan is my mate. I become silent, uncertain what to say, how to explain it. He walks up so close that my nose is touching his, the heat between us is exhilarating.

I then hear a familiar voice, knowing it's Landon's mother, I hear her say. “Please welcome Ivan, the alpha of the wicked falls pack. Your New alpha's mate, welcome him.”

You hear the cheers and clapping from the crowd, then you hear someone yelling are we joining packs that will make us even more strong.

I watch as the color slowly drains from Ivan's face. We cannot join packs because the wicked falls pack is no longer. We got attacked, everybody was either killed or captured. I didn't find anybody who survived, not even my family.

After his words, I can see the fear running through my pack members. Realizing now what kind of danger they're really in. I know most would want to run and hide. But I'm scared that they won't ever stop hurting and killing innocent wolves. Can I really leave Jayden, what if he comes back here And I'm not here, what will happen to him then?

I feel like my mind is rambling in circles, unable to decide or to even think straight. What is a good idea and what is not, I'm so unsure. Now I want to stay because of Jayden, I know it is selfish on my part, especially if it means losing pack members. He's just a child, how do I just leave and not wait for him to come back. Terrified of the alternative, which is accepting that he may never come back.