Lost Me, Gained Regret (Jane and Bryant Ferguson) novel Chapter 121

My heart felt like it had been torn open.

Tears wouldn't come anymore, and in a frail voice, I said, “I have no husband, no family... Please, you must save my child.”

“Well…” The nurse glanced between my legs, her expression troubled, but finally, she simply said, “We’ll do everything we can.”

Hearing these words from the medical staff, I let out a small sigh of relief.

However, as soon as I was hoisted onto the operating table and after the doctor asked about my condition, he immediately said, “Call the anesthetist, be ready for a D&C.”

I stared at the blinding operating lights, my eyes both dry and pained.

My ankle-length dress was lifted by the doctor, and though it seemed he asked me something, my mind was buzzing, leaving me with no other choice.

A slight sting on the back of my hand, and then I lost all consciousness, plunging into darkness.

“Mommy. Mommy. I’m leaving, Mommy, you don’t want me anymore…”

Watching a tiny figure drift further away from me, I cried out, “No! Don’t leave me, baby!”

When I opened my eyes, all I saw were the stark white walls.

The room was so quiet, only the sound of the IV drip remained. Christine, sitting by my side, suddenly stood up, concern in her voice, “How are you feeling?”

“Chris, my baby, where is my baby?”

“…I’m so sorry…” Christine’s eyes instantly filled with tears.

“I…” I touched my belly, feeling utterly numb, “My baby… I dreamt he said I didn’t want him…”

"Jane..." Christine's eyes teared up and she turned away to wipe them before reassuring me, "It's not on you, it's not your fault. The baby must have known how much you loved him."

“But, I still couldn’t protect him.”

It’s all my fault.

My heart felt like an empty shell, with the chill seeping in, turning my blood ice cold.