Love Aint Always Pretty novel Chapter 79

Amour

- a sexual relationship or a secret love affair: usually an illicit love affair

Origin: Latin

79

NICK'S POV

A few days before Savannah's bachelorette party...

I could still hear Savannah so clearly as I close my eyes when she told me she's marrying someone. I gaze at the invitation card uninterestedly. I still couldn't believe she's getting married. I just don't want her to marry yet, I know I am being selfish right now because Damon is already making her happy and Damon has filled the empty spaces that I left.

I know I'm selfish when it comes to Savannah. I know I always want Savannah all to myself but at the same time I also push her away because I always end up thinking that I will never be good enough for her because of my past. I'm scared about the future that she's gonna have with me.

My life has changed since I left her and even though we're far away from each other, she's all I think about all the time. She doesn't know but I come around NYU before just to check on her. I would look at her from a distant or outside the university's lot. A lot has changed in my life and that would include Dakota. I didn't really want to marry her but I knew I had to because I needed it. I needed he money.

I know I did something terrible. I know this is not a great idea to become easily rich. Marrying someone rich as hell so I could get rich too is undeniably unforgivable. But even though I'll appear as a cunt in front of everyone for what I did, I only did this for Savannah. I did this to be worthy of her in front of her parents because I'll have money on my own and I'll have a position in one of the huge companies in New York.

Everything just happened too fast that time and I don't know how to say no to Mrs. Devaloines' last will that she asked from me because since she helped me a lot on what I had to know. She has been my second mother and when she died, I promised her to maintain the legacy her company has. She said, someday she wants me to run the company and maybe rename it.

Everything was so quiet around the house tonight. I sit down on my office at home with a bottle of vodka on top of my desk and a few papers needed to read. I haven't really tried to read them all because I'm bothered about this invitation card that's laid before me. I take a look at it as I massaged my temples while my head rumbles heavily with the thought of Savannah about to get married and it's not with me.

My door suddenly opens wide while Dakota steps in, rubbing her stomach.

"Aren't you going to bed?" She asked.

I fixed myself and sat down straight on my chair. "In a while."

I quickly grabbed the invitation card tk hide it from her because I don't want to attend in Savannah's day.

"What's that you're hiding?" She asked and quickly walked to my table.

She snatched it from my hand.

"Oh." She snaps. "It's a wedding invitation." She opens it right away and reads its content.

She gapes.

"Savannah Canterbury and Damon Patricks' wedding?" She exclaims

I stared at her as she puts it back down on the desk. "The Damon Patricks? Wow. I didn't know he was her boyfriend. That woman."

My brows furrowing.

"Well, how exciting! Don't you think? We should definitely go. I think its going to be a marvelous wedding of the year." Dakota states.

I started jotting down a few notes on the papers on top of my desk to ignore Dakota who's annoying my me time. I hate it when she comes here uninvited. I couldn't think straight and she would always bug me almost every single night to just be with her. She hates it when I don't sleep in one bed with her and I don't know why she's acting as if she's my legal wide when she is not.

"Nick." She calls out.

I slightly pulled my head up to him.

"Will you take long here?" She asked.

"I'm not sure." I put my eyes back down on the papers.

"You're always so busy." She cooed.

I glared at her briefly under my lashes.

"Aren't you going to join me on the bed?" She asked. "It's been a while since the last time we had sex Nick."

I sighed and tried to ignore her still.

"Nick. Come on." she states.

"Dakota. Please. I will not touch you again and your pregnancy is very risky." I tell her.

Dakota started walking closer to me and stood behind my back. She massages my shoulders and finally wrapped her entire arms around me but I didn't try pull myself away because I don't want her to throw some ridiculously annoying tantrums again. I started acting as if I was busy reading the papers laid out before me and continued ignoring her while she's seducing me. Dakota starts kissing my ear but I pulled my head away.

"Dakota stop it." I say.

"Nick... Im so horny." She whispers to my ear as she bites my earlobe.

I quickly pushed her arms away from me and stood from the chair. She stares at me angrily and we always do this every night whenever she comes in here with her raging hormones.

"Nick come on! We're married. We can still have sex again." She says to me.

"I was drunk that night. You took advantage of it and I didn't tell your mother about it either."

She laughs humorlessly. "So you're saying I raped you."

"Yeah. You did."

Okay so we had sex. But that was one time and I was fucking drunk that night. It was the day I found out that Savannah was dating someone new and I was terribly hurt that time. I drowned myself with alcohols that led to that sinful unwanted night. I didn't know we could do it and I didn't want to do it with Dakota either but everything was so blurry that night and adrenaline was rushing in my veins, I was horny as hell since I was seeing Savannah in Dakota so basically we had sex. But I didn't want to do it with her again.

"Come on Nick!" She whines.

"I'm sorry. But no." I said firm.

"What's the use of you being my husband if you're not gonna have sex with me!" She exclaims.

"Marriage isn't only because of sex. Are you really being serious right now?" I asked her.

She arched an eyebrow. "You think I'm fucking joking?"

"What the fuck Dakota. You're pregnant, look at how huge your stomach is. You expect me to fuck you like that? That was one night. A long long time ago. So please have a little shame for yourself." I say.

I take a long drink. "And don't forget that this is only a contract marriage. We act like a married couple in front of everybody but we are not legally married. You're lucky enough I saved your ass from shame." I added

She raised her hand up in midair and suddenly slapped my cheek. "How dare you?!" She raised her voice at me.