Love Aint Always Pretty novel Chapter 87

Surprisal

- the state of being surprised

87

SAVANNAH'S POV

Seeing Nick holding our baby, just puts me into tears. I'm crying too much that I want to tell him already that that baby is his but then what will Damon do if he'll know Nick is the father? I don't want to ruin Nick's image now that he has his own family too even though I know that's not his child from Dakota, he's still publicly known as the father.

I wouldn't want to ruin that.

"She's beautiful Savannah." Nick turns to me with tears in his eyes.

I opened my arms to him and I didn't even say anything anymore because I'm already too exhausted. Nick bends down and placed my baby on top of me as I carefully wrap my arms around her. I tiring smile plasters on my face and I'm too happy to see her finally out of me. I'm so tired but hearing her cry is just beautiful music to my ears. My tears filled my eyes and they're falling on my cheeks but I feel so relieved to see the fruit of our love. She's already on my hand and I'm already holding her.

"Congratulations." The doctor says to us.

God! I'm definitely not having a second child just yet. That was tiring!

"What will you name her?" Nick asked.

I take a longer look at Nick and I was thinking of possible names that I could name our baby. I think deeply on everything we've been through and what could I name her that relates to us. I want a name what would help me remember Nick. I want a name that would have an impact to me when Nick will be gone away. This scene won't last long. The day after this, he'll go back to his own family in New York. Finally I had one in mind, I smiled at him.

"Melissa." I say.

Nick stares at me eagerly and I know something is on his mind.

"Just like--"

"Your mom's." I cut him off.

I smiled again. "I want to name her Melissa, like your mother's."

He stares at me for a while and kissed my forehead.

•••••

"Have you informed Damon?" I ask Nick while he was busy cleaning up the table after he ate.

It was already ten in the evening and I'm sure as hell Damon is already out of his mind thinking where I could have gone since last night. I don't want to inform him that I finally delivered the baby out because he won't really care about it anyways. The doctor had cured my bruises too and I'm worried if Nick had informed Dakota that he's with me.

"After what he did to you? He doesn't have the right to know about this." He says angrily.

"Nick he's still my husband."

He angrily place the plate down on the table and I flinch. "Damn it Savannah!"

He adds, "He clearly doesn't deserve you! Nor your baby! Look at you for gods sake! A rightful husband won't hit his wife!"

I sigh.

I curse the moment he saw my bruises.

"He did this to you while you were pregnant? Does he even know how to take care of you?" He asked.

"Nick. Calm down. I'm alright."

"You're not alright!" He exclaims.

He runs his fingers through his hair.

"I'm so mad at him for hitting you. How long has he done this to you? Was this the thing you were about to tell Aries when you accidentally dialed my number instead?" He asked.

I couldn't say anything to him because he is undeniably angry right now and I'm scared of what he could do to Damon. I don't know why I'm defending Damon after what he has done to me. I don't know why I'm scared for Damon now that Nick knows what he's done. And even though I want Nick and Aries to beat his ass for what he did to me, I can't be that evil.

"Nick. I'm alright now." I say.

"You're not safe with him."

"I am."

"God Savannah! You are not! You're not! He's fucking hurting you and that's not okay with me!"

He walks to me and sits down on my bed. He holds my cheek and I could see pure anger behind those contrasting blue eyes of his.

"I couldn't even lay a finger on you but he does it so easily." He say weakly.

"You deserve better than this." He adds.

I smiled. "People deserve second chances Nick."

"Why didn't you give me one then?"

My heart breaks.

I quickly looked away from his gaze because watching him looking at me, hurts like a knife stabbed on my back running down along by spine. It hurts so much to think about it and I know we're both hurt by this situation we are in. And me, stuck in between wanting to tell Nick the truth and keeping it as a secret from him until I could take it.

"Why did you name your baby after my mother's name?" He asked.

I move my head to him.

"You won't let me?" I ask.

He smiles. "I'm not saying I won't allow you to. I just want to know why."

Because it's yours.

I smile ruefully. "I don't know. I just want to name her after your mother."

He nods.

Slowly, I grabbed his hand and held it. He looks at our hands holding onto each other and before he could pull his head up to look at me, he kissed the back of my hand. He looks up at me and smiled at me so handsomely.

"Give me a second name." I say.

"Shouldn't Damon do that?"

I shake my head. "I want your opinion."

He pursed his lips and having deep thoughts about possible names that he could think. Whatever he'll like, I'll definitely like it too. Melissa is also his baby and it would be unfair for his part if he won't give the second name.

"Nirvana." He jokes.

I smile. "That's a band. Be serious. Come on." I chuckle.

He laughs softly. "Okay. Sorry. How about...Nicole."

I smile. "Nicole?" I questioned.

He smirks. "I was the one who was with you when you gave birth to her. I have the credit to name her after me. Nicholas. Nicole."

I shyly smiled. "Melissa Nicole."

Both of us went quiet and his eyes we're looking directly at me.

"Hmmm, sounds like something is missing on it." I commented.

"Nicole." He repeats.

We went quiet for about two minutes or ten and I couldn't think about possible names that we could use anymore because I want him to give our baby a second name.

"Nicholeen." He blurted out.

My brows creasing.

"Combination of my name, Nicholas, and your second name which is Coleen." He adds.

A smile suddenly appears on my face and I quickly loved it the moment when I heard it from him. He went quiet and just looked at me as if he said something wrong.

"I was joking." He snaps.

"Damon won't allow that. I'm sorry. I'll think of another one." He adds.

I shake my head. "I love it."