My Unforgivable Mate novel Chapter 30

I just see a eighteen year old trying to live his life, he's passionate about sports just like any other boy. He wants the best for his pack just like any other guy, and he cares for his mama like the mama boy he is. See? A big softy.

We've spent the weekdays away form the rest of the group and in the centre of Fiji, he took me to see a beautiful water fall and even took me dancing! Yes dancing! I didn't even see that coming. He's pretty good at it, who would of thought.

Trust me I've tired, I didn't want to fall for him but I also can't help myself. I want to blame it on the bond or Nia but it's all me, I'm setting myself up for a heartbreak but he's my mate. Oh shit, that's the first.

Even right now it's our last night here because we leave late in the afternoon tomorrow, to be honest I don't want to leave because I don't know how it's going to be when we go back home.

Saint takes my hand leading me back into the direction of the hotel "You know," I break our comfortable silence "I never would of expected all this from you."

"Oh really?" He looks down at me "What did you expect?"

"Not this," I let out a soft laugh, even though we've only had a few deep conversations I feel like I know him inside out, and I haven't even kissed him yet!

And he still manages to make my stomach flip with just one look. I take out my keycard and open my suite to him and we walk in, I take my sandals and cardigan off leaving me in a bikini top and shorts.

I take a seat crossing my legs and watch Saint approach me "Do you want to play truth or strip?"

"I have a feeling you make these games up." I tell him and he chuckles sitting down with only two feet between us.

"Why did you deny it at first?" He asks "Why'd you deny the bond?"

My names Bond, James Bond.

"I don't know," I smile at my thought then drop my eyes to my lap.

"I just- this is all very new to me." I tell him "Why we're you so determined it was me?"

"I saw the way you carried yourself, it matched my energy." He turns in my direction leaning in a little, my heart beats hard in my chest as I swallow down "Will you be my girlfriend?"

"No," he smiles to my answers and I just admire it "unless you drop your blondie." I can't believe I'm seriously asking him to chose me.

"I don't want to play anymore," I announce.

"Why not?"

"Because, I don't want to play anymore." My tone has gone completely cold and Saint picks up on it, he leans on his hands putting distance between us. His eyes stay on mine as I try my hardest not to ball out because of three stupid words he said.

"Don't you have your pack to go back too? You been away all week, they probably looking for you." He studies me for a second then stands, he looks in the direction of my balcony and I keep my eyes locked on my bathroom door.

I see him walk up to me from the corner of my eye and then he leans down gently kissing my cheek, I go against my instincts wanting to pull him close and stay put. His kiss leaves my cheek tingling and then he ups and leave and I just watch him.

I let out a shaky breath not letting myself shed a tear form him. I fucking knew it! I let myself get in too deep and now look at where I'm at! Why would you do this to yourself? Now I have no one to balms but myself.

I let him sleep in my bed with me, I let him cuddle and caress my face, I even did it to him. I'm the one who opened up to him and let him hold my hand, I'm the one that fell in too deep. I dug my own whole. I did this.

And now all I feel is disappointment, how stupid was I to think that we had a bond? He told me we're meant to be and I just believed him. What world do I think I'm living in? This isn't my fantasy, I should have been a realist form the jump. Now I'm just hurt.