My Unforgivable Mate novel Chapter 49

I want him to whisper in my ear so I can feel his hot breath heating me up as I'm trying to breath in between strokes, I just want him. I need him.

At least this time my alarm wake me up and I drag myself out of bed, I take my sloth self to my bathroom and turn on the cold water. I really need to get some pills for this headache I have. I undress myself and then put a foot in the cold water, too cold!

I turn it up making it warm and then step in, I let the water consume me getting my hair wet too. Once my body is used to the water temperature I turn it down feeling the cold water droplets beat my face like tiny painless needles.

My mind starts to wonder back to Saint and I've had enough of that, I'm so tired of feeling an empty void in me just because he's no longer around. I'm tired of the constant crashing of emotions I don't recognize overwhelm me every time I think about him, I'm tired of his absence.

The anger and frustration builds up in me and I let myself feel these two common emotions, I expect me to hurry this shower up and just rush to school wanting this daydream to end but I kinda just stand there. I feel water run down my cheeks and into the corner of my mouth, I lick my lips tasting the salty water.

Am I crying? No that's gotta be the shower water. I sob escapes my lips and I cover my mouth remembering I live in a house full of wolves with wolf hearing, yep I'm definitely crying. Well more so Nia.

She's kinda torn about the whole Saint leaving for his conference thing, I mean I am upset but she upset.

Believe it or not I get my crying ass to school and meet Tomas at my locker "Hey you," he greats me.

"Hi," I try force a smile but even I can't right now.

"How are you?" He asks as I open my locker.

"Hot, like really hot." I throw my bag in not even getting my things for my first lesson which happens to be chemistry, at least I can let this class pass by without doing anything.

To say the least the school day was as dreadful as any other without Saint, I try make it through my lessons with a clear mind but every time I try I just think about him. When the school bell announces out release I take off with Tomas and make our way back home, today marks the fourth day and Saint should be coming home.

My drive home consist of me trying not to throw up, I think I'm way to nervous in seeing him again. I pick up Bailey and Tili on the way so they don't have to take the bus. "Can we go out for ice cream before dinner?" Tili asks "Since it's so flipping hot,"

"You got money for ice cream?" Bailey asks her making me smile.