Billionaire, I Am Not Your Wife! novel Chapter 49

The Summary Her Life

The Summary Of Her Life

Chapter 47: The Summary Of Her Life

Sedona’s POV

“The irony was that as time went on, after I got married to him, the things that made him attractive at first became problems later. The decisiveness became controlling because he was always in charge and he never liked me contradicting him or doing things that he didn’t approve of. The confidence became dismissiveness as my opinions were always not listened to. The clarity about what he wanted meant there was no room for what I wanted.”

“When did you realize it was wrong?” Enzo asked quietly.

“I’m not sure I did at that moment. Not consciously. Not until much later.” I looked at them both, these people who’d known me before Chicago, who remembered a version of me that had gotten buried somewhere in the past three years.

“I got pregnant about six months after we met, which was something that greatly influenced my decision. The pregnancy was unplanned, and I expected the worse for Logan to assume that I was trying to tie him down with a pregnancy he didn’t asked for because he was rich but Logan seemed happy about it. He proposed on the spot, not bothering to even make an effort about it and I was so happy we were getting married at all that I said yes, saying that he was proving his love, we got married quickly, and then Nick came early-eight weeks early-and everything became about keeping him alive.”

Rachel’s hand went to her mouth. “Eight weeks early. Sedona, that’s-”

“It was terrifying,” I said simply, knowing it. It was something that I had gotten used to and loved with the fear so I knew how to cope with it and not let it affect me visibly.

“He was so small. So fragile. The doctors weren’t sure he’d make it through the first few nights and he was kept in constant care and supervision. But he fought hard. He was a fighter from the very beginning.”

My voice caught slightly as I swallowed hard. “And I devoted everything to him. Every moment, every thought, every decision that I made was something I did after checking how it would affect Nick’s life. Logan was building his company, working constantly, and I was fine with that because it meant I could focus entirely on Nick without feeling guilty about neglecting my husband.”

“That’s a lot to carry alone,” Rachel said.

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“I didn’t think of it that way. I thought that’s what mothers did. Sacrifice everything, make themselves smaller, orient their entire existence around their child’s needs.”

I looked down at Molly, at this healthy, peaceful baby who’d clearly never spent a day in a NICU, who’d clearly always been loved and wanted and secure in her position.

“Nick had so many health problems that it seemed like a grocery list at one point and the doctor kept talking about it. Allergies, asthma, a compromised immune system which meant that he was basically easily affected by anything that would come near him. I had to be vigilant about everything-what he ate, where he went, who he was around. Other mothers thought I was paranoid and that having a child wasn’t that big of a deal and I shouldn’t be that protective, saying boys would be boys. Logan’s mother told me repeatedly that I was being overprotective, that I was smothering him.”

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“Were you?” Enzo asked, not unkindly

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was keeping him alive,” I said flatly. “Every restriction I put in place, every ‘no’ I gave him, every time I stopped him from doing something dangerous or eating something he was allergic to or going somewhere that would trigger his asthma-I was keeping him alive. But to him, especially as he got older, I was just the person who never let him have fun, and he was beginning to see the difference in the way I treated him and the way his friends mums treated their sons and he started to resent me in little ways.”

Rachel’s expression had shifted to something more troubled. “And Logan? Where was he in all of this?”

“Working. Building his empire. Being important and gaining a lot of respect and reputation in his business circle.” I heard the bitterness in my own voice and didn’t try to hide it. “And then Katherine came back to

town.”

“The first love,” Rachel said.

“Catherine. Tennis star. Beautiful, accomplished, everything I’m not. They’d dated years ago, before me, and she’d left to pursue her professional career and had decided that dumping Logan was the smarter choice back then. But she got injured about three months ago, and she came back to Chicago to recover.” I paused. “Logan helped her. Spent time with her. Took Nick to visit her. And slowly, I became invisible in my own life.”

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