My Cursed Sadistic Alpha Sebastian's Curse novel Chapter 15

Athena

I'd waited the entire night for Sebastian's arrival but he did not arrive. Maybe this was the first night I'd waited for him and this was also the night when I didn't get his glimpse.

I knew I'd decided to help him out of his situation but was I going to be able to stay on my ground when everything he has done to me was still embedded deep inside my head?

He had no control over himself or his mind whatsoever. But did that fully justify all his actions? No, I knew it didn't.

Nonetheless, I still thought that my decision was not wrong.

It was the truth that even if I did not get him out of the curse, there was no way of my escape. He was just so tied to the chains of his curse that he'd just never stop making everything hard for me, put me through hell because he was in need to suppress his feelings that the mate bond between us made him feel.

Of course, getting Sebastian out of his curse was not only my want but also my need. I needed to do this in order to save both of us from this hell; I wanted to free him from his curse because he was my mate, and no matter how much I tried, it'd be a lie if I said that I did not care for him or felt nothing towards him.

If I just stayed on the page and kept trying to despise him and blame him over and over again, nothing was going to change. It'd all be a repeat cycle of the same sufferings for both of us.

Freedom for me was attached to the freedom of Sebastian.

But there was also no point to deny that, I actually wanted to help me. It was not only for the sake of myself, I truly wanted to do it for him.

I was not going to deny my feelings. If accepting what I felt made me weak, then I'd proudly accept it.

I wanted to free My mate from his demons and give him a life he never got to live before.

But what scared me was that I knew it was going to be really tough for me. It was decades of trauma I had to wipe off from his mind and the process was not at all going to be a bed of roses for me.

The clicking sound of the front door opening snapped me from my thoughts.

I looked at the doorway in hope but I found Sarah walking inside with a food tray.

Flashing me with a small hesitant smile, she set the tray on the side and sat beside me, "Hey, Athena."

"Hi, Sarah," I forced a smile on my face.

"You should take your breakfast, also I have brought the medicines that'll help you heal faster." She handed me the drugs and a glass of water.

"Thanks, Sarah," I swallowed the tablets with water.

She sat in front of me, a slight bit of hesitation draping over her features as she spoke, "I couldn't really check on you like the other times because after what happened Alpha is not trusting any maid around you, he has assigned a few new maids in the place of the previous ones. I managed to come only because Alpha's not home yet."

A bitter feeling washed over me because of the remembrance of the event. Winona's face flashed in front of my eyes before it was the sight of her blood that took over my thoughts.

I was sure that what I'd felt showed up in my expression too and Sarah did not fail to notice it as well.

"Look, Athena...I know it's really hard for you to not be overwhelmed after everything you have gone through but trust me you have got no fault in anything that has happened."

"Winona died because of me, Sarah. She was just trying to help me and this honest intention of hers got her killed, tell me how is that not my fault? I am the reason she lost her life." My voice trembled.

I felt extremely guilty and I knew I had to bear this burden of horrible memories for the rest of my life.

But then what Sarah said left me bewildered on my spot.

"Winona did not want to help you, Athena. What she did was for her own selfish motives."

"What?" It automatically left my mouth.

"Yes, it is the truth. Winona did not want to help you, she did all of that for the money she was given. And by stopping you from escaping that night, Alpha has actually saved your life because you could actually get killed that day." She said, "Her intentions were not honest, she did not want to help you, she was only trying to fulfill her motives."

What was she saying? I couldn't understand anything she was saying, it all went over my head.

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