Spoiled By My Nine Beast Husbands (Emma Tibarn) novel Chapter 434

**When She Opened the Door to the Life She Was Afraid to Live by Nora Vale Kingsley 434**

The battlefield stretched out before them, an eerie and desolate landscape, haunted by the echoes of conflict. Lucien, Calum, and Marcus stood amidst the remnants of their shattered hopes, their faces pale and drawn, as if life itself had been drained from their very beings. The atmosphere was thick with a sense of despair that clung to them like a heavy fog, wrapping around their hearts and minds.

A biting wind swept across the Pantheon Battlefield, its cold fingers brushing against their skin, stealing away any lingering warmth. It whispered through the debris of their former lives, a mournful sound that seemed to mock their defeat and amplify their sense of loss. With every gust, it felt as if the world itself was lamenting their failures, a cruel reminder of their shattered dreams.

In a moment of utter defeat, Lucien’s knees buckled, and he collapsed onto the unforgiving ground. He buried his face in his trembling hands, his body wracked with silent sobs. A dry, humorless laugh escaped his lips, echoing in the stillness, a sound that held no joy. “Ha… hahaha…”

The crushing weight of guilt bore down on him, suffocating and relentless. *It’s all my fault. Everything spiraled out of control because of the choices I made…*

His voice, barely a whisper, was hoarse and raw, like sandpaper scraping against his throat. “What does it matter if I play the role of the primary mate? Isn’t it just another act of pretending? A charade where I convince myself that I deserve this while I watch Emma shower affection on someone else? Isn’t it merely a matter of suppressing my own desires, keeping everything locked away, always focusing on the bigger picture? Haven’t I been doing that for far too long?”

Frustration surged within him, and his fingers tangled in his hair, his body shaking under the weight of his regrets. “I’ve kept all this bottled up for so long. So why… why couldn’t I just hold it together? Why did I have to scheme against Calum? Why did I let that flicker of bitterness twist me into making the dumbest choices? And now… it’s all gone. I didn’t just lose my place as the primary mate. Emma has cast aside my role as a partner too.”

*I truly… deserve every ounce of this pain.*

Calum sat not far from Lucien, his usual strength and confidence stripped away, leaving behind a shell of the man he once was. The Marshal’s Empire had never tasted defeat, and yet here he was, crumpled on the ground, staring at his empty hands as if he could still feel the cold finality of Emma’s withdrawal from him.

“I felt the same way,” he confessed, his voice heavy with the burden of guilt. “Why was I so afraid? If I wasn’t cut out for the primary role, I could have learned to grow into it.”

In a fit of frustration, Calum slammed his fist into the ground, the impact sending a shockwave through his body as blood welled up on the back of his hand. Yet, he felt nothing. He was numb. “Why did I overthink everything? Why did I convince myself that I wasn’t the right fit? All of that was just an excuse. I was terrified of losing my chance to shine.”

*Why didn’t I just take the blame when Lucien hurled it at me? I should have owned it. If I messed up, the worst Ms. Tibarn would think is that I’m slow. At least I’d still be close to her. So why am I trying to mimic Lucien and shove everything onto Marcus? Why do I act like a petty troublemaker just to annoy Ms. Tibarn?*

“Now… what are we supposed to do?” Calum’s voice trembled with helplessness as he gazed at the empty horizon where the warship had vanished. “We’ve lost the right to pursue them.”

*I’ve been pleading with the Beast God for five long years just to get a female. And now she’s simply gone?*

Meanwhile, Marcus lay sprawled on the ground, his mind a swirling vortex of detachment. As Lucien and Calum continued their self-recriminations, each word felt like a knife piercing through his chest. “You two are absolute fools. Why would I want to be just as foolish as you?”

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