Chapter 35. Beginning of a Dilemma.
Clara
There are phrases that stay, not because of what they say. But because of what they awaken.
“You two make a lovely couple”
Ethan said it in a serious tone. No mockery. No irony. Without that lopsided smile he used when he wanted to hurt me gracefully.
He said it as if he were stating something obvious. And since then, the phrase hasn’t gone away.
It was a bit embarrassing because Alexander was with me, he was by my side.
I’m in my office, looking out the window at the city. New York, I have so many memories here… Not even
when someone doubts. Not even when someone remembers. Not even when someone tries to
understand why a simple prayer can upset the inner balance of an entire week.
Do we make a lovely couple?
We are not even a couple… What nonsense. Alexander is my investor in the expansion. My strategic partner. The man who arrived with figures, projections and a look that is not intimidated.
And yet… There is something different.
I noticed it since he waited for me outside the building the day I returned from seeing Dad. I noticed it in how he rearranged meetings without making it look like a concession. In how he asks, but does not
invade.
He is not a man who competes for space. He is a man who holds it.
My office door rings softly.
“Shall I interrupt?”
Alexander.
“You never interrupt,” I reply, and as soon as I say it, I remember him telling me the same thing a few days
ago.
It leans on the frame before entering. He does not enter without permission. That detail, as minimal as it may seem, I have begun to record.
“I wanted to review the expansion proposal in Chicago with you before sending it to the committee,” he says, picking up the folder.
I nod and gesture for him to come in.
He sits down in front of me, but this time he doesn’t immediately place the folder on the table. First he
watches me.
“How is your father doing?”
“Good. He is heeding medical recommendations… something I never thought I’d say.”
A faint smile crosses his face.
“That is already progress.”
“Yes.”
Brief silence.
Not uncomfortable.
But more personal than usual.
“You look different,” he says finally.
I look up.
“Different how?”
It takes a second before answering.
“More present.”
I don’t know if I like that he notices those things.
I don’t know if I like someone to be so attentive.
“I guess some priorities fall into place when something scares you enough.”
“Sometimes that’s necessary.”
He says it without drama. As if he were speaking from experience.
I look at him more closely. Dark suit, light shirt, no tie again. Their movements are always contained. Measured. But there’s something about the way he looks at me that’s not business.
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And I know.
I’m sorry.
“Ethan… what he said on the day of the signing,” I say without planning it.
Alexander doesn’t react immediately, but his posture barely changes. More alert.
“Yes?”
“It’s that we made a lovely couple. I…”
The phrase floats among us.
He doesn’t smile. He doesn’t take it as anything important.
“And what do you think?” he asks.
That’s the kind of question I can’t answer with numbers.
I lean back in my chair
“That people tend to see what they want to understand.”
“And what do you think he understood?”
There it is.
It is not confrontation.
It’s interest.
“I don’t know,” I answer honestly. “I feel sorry for you for what he said.”
“It’s not a shame, in fact, it’s a compliment… You’re an amazing woman, Clara. I’m not sorry for that. Why
are you worried?”
Alexander holds my gaze. He was direct, blunt.
My pulse barely changes.
“Ethan is part of my story. That doesn’t go away, and I think that’s why I’m sorry that he’s the one who
made that comment.”
I didn’t understand, why out of nowhere he…?
“You shouldn’t worry, especially if it’s about someone who’s no longer in your life. Because he no longer has a place in your life, right?”
Its tone is soft. But firm.
I look out the window.
Does he? Does he have a place? Not like before… Not like my husband.
But there are bonds that do not evaporate just because a signature indicates it.
“I’m not looking to repeat the past,” I say at last.
“And you’re looking for something now?”
The question disarms me more than it should.
For years I sought stability, growth, consolidation.
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I never wondered if I was looking for companionship. Or if I just assumed that I had to be able to do it
alone.
“I don’t know,” I admit.
Alexander nods, as if that answer is enough for now.
Finally upen the folder and we start reviewing numbers. Projections. Risks. Strategies.
But something changed in the air.
There is a more conscious tension.
When we’re done, close the folder slowly.
*Clara.”
I look up.
“I don’t need you to answer me now,” he says. “But I’m not here just for investment.”
The clarity of his words runs down my back.
“I know.”
Because I know.
It is no coincidence the way in which it is present. I’ve noticed their special dealings, I’m not stupid.
It’s no coincidence that he rearranges his schedule to match mine, it’s no coincidence that he remembers
details that others would forget.
He stands up, but doesn’t head for the door right away.
“I’m not going to pressure you,” he adds. “But I’m not going to pretend I don’t care either.”
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