The Wolf Came on Christmas (Johanna and Alexander) novel Chapter 136

Chapter 136-1

I was very nervous the rest of the week.

But they were the good kind of nerves. Pleasant nerves. Nerves of anticipation and anxiety, of joy. I used that week to catch up a little on personal things I hadn’t paid much attention to in recent years. Like a more thorough waxing than usual and buying some essential bathroom accessories I hadn’t needed before. I felt like a fifteen–year–old, with her head occupied only by her first boyfriend; and sometimes I laughed thinking about how much I was committing to the situation. As if I had never been with someone before.

Well, I had never been with someone like him. How could I not be nervous?

At times, instead of concentrating on writing, I would catch myself wondering what peculiarities | might encounter. I mean, obviously a part of Alexander wasn’t human, and I knew nothing about the sexual habits of his kind (and I wasn’t going to ask either; just thinking about having to ask him what was unusual about going to bed with a werewolf made me laugh and blush at the same time). But then I remembered that he had lived for more than eight years beside a woman who didn’t know what he was, and that he had two beautiful children with her. Maybe there was nothing “peculiar.” Or maybe there was, and he had had to hide it from his wife the whole time. I couldn’t help wondering whether he would restrain himself with me, or whether he would allow himself to unfold in total trust.

I wasn’t afraid of him. I supposed nothing Alexander might do would surprise me, but perhaps my problem was that I was expecting something peculiar.

I took advantage of a trip to the city to meet Kaylee while Luke was at the station. Since they had their daughter, she had decided to stop working as the sheriff’s assistant to take care of the little whirlwind. They didn’t want to send her to daycare for fear that the girl might reveal some suspicious trait of her feline nature, and Kaylee didn’t mind staying home with her. My goddaughter was awake and active when I arrived, and I was able to spend some time with her. Stacey was a beautiful child; at two years old she already babbled many single words, drew with quite a bit of skill, and knew some nursery rhymes. Her blond hair was truly very silky, her green eyes as big as suns; she looked very much like her mother.

The little one was very fond of me and had become good friends with Sasha. She was also very interested in Andre; he looked after the two girls whenever they had the chance to play together. As I had thought from the beginning, Alexander and Luke had come to respect each other and eventually became good friends. They were people who thought alike, beyond their different natures. So perhaps that was why I decided to trust Kaylee to talk about such a delicate subject; I needed to tell someone, and I couldn’t think of many people. Kaylee knew Alexander well enough,

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and she knew me, and although we had never ventured into a topic like that, she listened patiently and attentively while I told her what had happened between us. And what would happen, too.

I thought that she, among all the people in the world, would understand me.

“…I knew sooner or later it was going to happen,” she commented with a smile. “I always thought there was something there, between you two, like… I don’t know, like it was easy. As if you were one of them. I never believed someone non–hybrid could understand and accept those of us who are with as much serenity as you did, Han. If there were more people like you in the world, I think we wouldn’t have to hide from anyone.”

“Kaylee, you…”

“I know, we weren’t talking about this. But I think it’s like they say, ‘you have a lot of wolf inside you,‘ and I wouldn’t dare deny it. You already had a bond from the beginning, that was obvious. You worked like a perfect pair. Whenever I see Alexander near you, he has that protective look in his eyes… he’s a leader, and he knows very well what his duties and responsibilities are, but that doesn’t mean he denies what he feels,” Kaylee continued, her green eyes glancing sideways at the little girl drawing at the small living room table. “Look, if that romantic nonsense about ‘destined mates‘ existed, I think you would be a perfect example of it. I’m glad you trusted me.”

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Chapter 136-2

Her smile grew wider, so much that I could see her small but noticeable animal fangs.

“…thank you for listening to me, Kay,” I replied, smiling too. “But, actually…”

I didn’t quite know how to approach the subject. Nor did I want to ask my friend what sexual life was like with a husband like hers, because that crossed a boundary that made me uncomfortable just thinking about it.

“What’s wrong? Is something bad?” Kaylee asked, seeing how hesitant I was.

“No, no… everything is wonderful, except that… well… he’s coming back this weekend, and we’ll be alone, and I… I mean, I don’t know… I don’t even know how to talk about this, isn’t it stupid?” I laughed, trying to ease the discomfort. “I mean, maybe there’s a chance of… uh… well, I told him to

bring condoms.”

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was sure it wouldn’t be a “maybe” when

I remembered the look in

Alexander’s blue

eyes, but Kaylee seemed to understand me, becher lips f

a very surprised “O.”

“Oh! Don’t worry, I get it,” she laughed with me, in good humor. “Well prepa

imagine it will be fun.”

“What kind of ‘fun‘ do you mean?”

wish you luck with that. I

“Let’s say I’m not going to talk about Luke, because that’s between him and me and we’re different; but I think if Alexander is the kind of person I believe he is, you have nothing to worry about. I

mean, I don’t know much about werewolves in that area, but… I, personally, have no complaints. If you know what I mean.”

Of course I understood. I felt heat rise to my cheeks again.

“Sure, I see,” I said, clearing my throat.

“Just… be brave and talk to him first. I don’t think Alexander would want to take action without being prepared, right? I mean, he was married before; his wife was an ordinary woman. He must know very well how this works.”

So it was about talking to him, as I had suspected from the beginning.

Kaylee’s advice encouraged me, and helped me frame the situation better. I mean, the more I thought about it, the more I convinced myself that when Alexander came back, inevitably the kisses would lead to something else (because I wanted it, I wanted it very much to happen) and I would have to be more than prepared to take on the challenge. It would be interesting.

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And also, the more I thought about it, the more I felt pushed to conclude all the pending matters! had about myself (the only one, really), such as, for example, visiting the gynecologist once and for

all.

So I set out to resolve that as soon as possible. I owed it to myself.

And I went to the appointment without any fear. One part of me was already at peace, even though another part kept tormenting me and telling me that the best thing was to remain in uncertainty and let it be whatever Destiny wanted.

But the part that thought about Alexander and the possibility of a future together was stronger.

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